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A walk in Rotterdam: Feijenoord

Today i ventured out towards the south part of Rotterdam. I kept it rather close, i focused on the Kop van Zuid, the Head of South, and the neighbourhood Feijenoord.

I left home around 9:30 and went straight to the city herb garden the Rotterdamse Munt, on the corner of the Laan op Zuid and the Brede Hilledijk. I had checked before i left home and knew there were people in the garden from 10 onwards.

I had a short talk with one of the coordinators, Giselle. The garden itself exists only for around two years. It funds itself with a shop, a small cafe with a lunch on Fridays and Saturdays and the possibility to get your vegetables from around Rotterdam there. People can pick their own herbs, but they also buy them in the shop. A couple of restaurants let some of their staff pick herbs themselves.

The current location is temporary. In a year or two the garden will move to another location. Still unsure where at this point. I do hope the new place will be close to the current one. Making a community of people living close by, helping out in the garden, working and socializing with each other takes time. It’ll be a waste if the community surrounding the garden now will be lost in future.

The main focus of the garden are the herbs. Mint, thyme, oregano, rosemary, sage, verbena are among the most well known herbs, but there are many other herbs growing and many different variations of thyme, mint and other herbs which all have their place in the beds. In the greenhouse some cucumbers and tomatoes grow.

I had a mint tea and an almond cake. Lovely.

Ready to walk on. I planned to walk back through the Feijenoord neighbourhood. I actually missed it for the most part. I was back at the north part too soon, close to the bridge next to the Hef, the old train bridge. I saw sunflowers and more vegetables and herbs, so i walked into the area just south of the Hef. After i took a photo of the insect hotel i walked further around and talked with a man who was filling up a small swimming pool. He showed me the garden of the Hefpark. It turned out one of the coordinators was sitting in the shade a bit further along. I had a short talk with him. And i forgot to ask his name! So sorry.

He told me about the garden, a community of single user small areas, from one square meter to a lot bigger, all sizes people would think they can handle. Most people keeping their garden were living close by. I told him about my own work in the Peace Garden. We could both see the advantages of both approaches. For me, since i don’t have any gardening experience, it is really nice to work with other people who know more than me in a larger garden. But for a family it does make sense to have your own garden and work on it together. And of course it is an easy step to ask for help from neighbouring gardeners. He also told me about another Rotterdam initiative with multiple projects in Rotterdam, Creatief Beheer. I will read more about them and certainly will visit their projects.

There is also a BMX area for bikes to cross over and a volleyball field.

After this, back to the upper part of Rotterdam and walking back home.

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Published on September 16, 2016 at 6:00 by

A present

I went to my mother today. We spend some time together. It was good. She gave me this present. It is from her mother, my grandmother, mijn oma. I never saw it before.

Thank you mom.

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Published on September 15, 2016 at 6:00 by

No Scrubs

No Scrubs from TLC has grown on me over the years. This song was on my list of songs to sing. I did try Buffalo Stance from Neneh Cherry before this, today. But the rapping in that song is difficult for me, i confess. So then i tried this song. It has hard bits in it too, but i think i manage it a bit. A bit! Especially the bit “If you don’t have a car and you’re walking” are hard for me. And some bits are sung very fast. But still, i think i manage it on the whole.

Enjoy!

No Scrubs – TLC
A scrub is a guy that think he’s fine and is
Also known as a buster (buster, buster)
Always talkin’ about what he wants
And just sits on his broke ass
So

No, I don’t want your number (no)
I don’t want to give you mine and (no)
I don’t want to meet you nowhere (no)
Don’t want none of your time and

No, I don’t want no scrub
A scrub is a guy that can’t get no love from me
Hanging out the passenger side
Of his best friend’s ride
Trying to holler at me
I don’t want no scrub
A scrub is a guy that can’t get no love from me
Hanging out the passenger side
Of his best friend’s ride
Trying to holler at me

But a scrub is checkin’ me but his game is kinda weak
And I know that he cannot approach me
‘Cause I’m lookin’ like class and he’s lookin’ like trash
Can’t get wit’ no deadbeat ass
So (yeah, yeah)

No, I don’t want your number (no)
I don’t want to give you mine and (no)
I don’t want to meet you nowhere (no)
I don’t want none of your time

No, I don’t want no scrub
A scrub is a guy that can’t get no love from me
Hanging out the passenger side
Of his best friend’s ride
Trying to holler at me
I don’t want no scrub
A scrub is a guy that can’t get no love from me
Hanging out the passenger side
Of his best friend’s ride
Trying to holler at me

If you don’t have a car and you’re walking
Oh yea son I’m talking to you
If you live at home wit’ your momma
Oh yes son I’m talking to you (baby)
If you have a shorty but you don’t show love
Oh yes son I’m talking to you
Wanna get with me with no money
Oh no I don’t want no (oh)

(No) no scrub
(Scrub)(no love)
(No) no scrub
(Scrub) no no
(No) no scrub
(Scrub) no no no no (no)
(Scrub) no no

No, I don’t want no scrub
A scrub is a guy that can’t get no love from me
Hanging out the passenger side
Of his best friend’s ride
Trying to holler at me
I don’t want no scrub
A scrub is a guy that can’t get no love from me
Hanging out the passenger side
Of his best friend’s ride
Trying to holler at me

No, I don’t want no scrub
A scrub is a guy that can’t get no love from me
Hanging out the passenger side
Of his best friend’s ride
Trying to holler at me
I don’t want no scrub
A scrub is a guy that can’t get no love from me
Hanging out the passenger side
Of his best friend’s ride
Trying to holler at me

Published on September 14, 2016 at 6:00 by

Insane

Yes. Insane.

I am not doing the right thing to keep my house. I am not doing the right thing to take care of my cats. To take care of me. To take care of my health.

I need to work to make money to pay my mortgage, to pay my food, to pay food for my cats, to pay for my diabetes medicine, to pay for my cats medicine, to pay for the energy i use, to pay for the phone i use, to pay for television and internet access.

I know. Insane.

A year ago i wrote a post My futures.

I know the private life. I have lived it for the past thirty years. It’s difficult and hard work. There is peace and quiet. And loneliness.

So, if i have to make a choice, i’d rather choose a public life. It will be equally hard work, it will be equally difficult. But it is also filled with friends. I will not have complete freedom in choosing the things i do. But on the whole, i think i will be happier. A bit messier too. But that’s alright.

I am not leading this public life yet. I am talking with people i meet on the streets. One time i saw a man on the Beursplein yelling at the people passing him by. Yelling they were racist, treating him wrong. I walked up to him and said that i didn’t agree with what he was saying. I hugged him. He started to cry. This was all i could do.

Most people i talk to tell me about their lives. One woman spoke to me about the boys in her neighborhood, who threaten to enter her house. A man told me about his volunteer jobs and the various functions he had as volunteer.

I try to look at people’s faces when i walk past them. Some do not see me at all, they walk by, their eyes turned down, hiding from everyone. Some say hi. Some react like i am trapping them. A girl once said to her boyfriend that i was staring at her, turning to him for protection. I simply walked by and caught her eyes, that was it.

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I am working in the Peace Garden since April this year. I did start a few years ago in the Gandhi Garden, but didn’t follow it through then. I am happy i am working in the garden now. Happy to meet new people, who are all different, but still the same in some key areas. Care of this world, care of the food they eat.

Soil is the second biggest reservoir of carbon on the planet, next to the oceans. It holds four times more carbon than all the plants and trees in the world. But human activity like deforestation and industrial farming – with its intensive ploughing, monoculture and heavy use of chemical fertilisers and pesticides – is ruining our soils at breakneck speed, killing the organic materials that they contain. Now 40% of agricultural soil is classed as “degraded” or “seriously degraded”. In fact, industrial farming has so damaged our soils that a third of the world’s farmland has been destroyed in the past four decades.

Reading this article Our best shot at cooling the planet might be right under our feet on the Guardian website makes me so mad. We are ruining the earth under our feet. Using technology and science to make excuses for ourselves. We need more food, we say! But we throw away around 40% of all the food we harvest.

We are all insane. We are all living in this dream, where things are right, where what we do makes sense, where we live the best life we possibly can. Because we have the science. We are right. We say.

I do not agree.

I am not the first person to say this. To be honest, i feel more like the last person to say this. I have bought my food in the supermarket for years. I have worked for money for years. I am living in my house for the past 21 years. I went along in the same dreamy rhythm as almost anyone else living here, paying taxes and mortgages and energy and all other stuff a person uses in this western world.

I am not saying i have all, if any answers. But i do remember how i used to view this world growing up and for a large part of my adult life. As me simply a part of the world. This world which seemed to go at its own pace towards its own goal. Me tagging along. Trying to find a right spot for myself.

It is not like that. We all are here living on this earth with a certain responsibility towards its destiny. It is not politicians who decide, not businessmen, not scientists. Each and every one of us can make the choice to make this world a better place.

I wrote this in Food. I still feel like this. I actually feel even more like this.

Each and every one of us can make the choice to make this world a better place.

I should say this differently.

Each and every one of us makes a choice: to make this world a better place – or not.

So yes, i am insane.

I am stepping out. The money i still have is caught up in my house. It is not that i want to give my house up, certainly not. But in the end, if it is necessary, i will do that.

I will fight with my heart and soul for what i think we need to do. Take a step back. Take care of this planet, with our entire heart. Grow food in the soil, where we can. Think with our heads and hearts and hands. I will try my utmost to talk to other people about this. It is hard for me. It is easier for me to hide. But it has got to stop somewhere.

I have thought of myself as a queen of this new world. I am not that. I am a hard working woman with her hands in the earth, singing songs and filming videos and making walks and photographing the earth and the sky and the water around.

And yes.

I am insane.

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We have come to see ourselves as the lords and masters of the Earth, entitled to plunder her at will. The sickness evident in the soil, in the water, in the air and in all forms of life are symptoms that reflect the violence present in our hearts. We have forgotten that we ourselves are dust of the Earth; that we breathe her air and receive life from her waters.

Source: ENCYCLICAL LETTER – LAUDATO SI’ – OF THE HOLY FATHER FRANCIS – ON CARE FOR OUR COMMON HOME

Published on September 13, 2016 at 6:00 by

Vlog #2 The garden

Talking with you, while i’m in the garden. About a talk i had with a friend on Saturday. I’m still uncertain about my current course of action. Blindly working on ellenpronk.com, not looking at the practical issues, my mortgage, my health payments. I’ll be without any money in a month or so.

So i am talking about this now, with you. To get it of my mind a bit, to get it out of myself, out there in the open.

The last bit of this video is a bit blurry. Sorry about that.

Published on September 12, 2016 at 6:00 by

A day off

After yesterday i spend today quieter. I went out for lunch. I walked up to the Witte de Withstraat and ate a Wagamama ramen. Sitting outside half in the shade.

Afterwards i sat for a while near the water at a fountain. Enjoying the summer while it’s still here. Walking through the city center i stopped at the IJssalon and bought a strawberry scoop with whipped cream.

That is it for me for today. Tired.

But also very happy!

<3

Published on September 9, 2016 at 6:00 by

Saving All My Love For You

The idea for this clip popped late last week. Or over the weekend. Not sure to be honest.

I do love this song. Saving All My Love For You. On Whitney Houston’s first album. I bought this album in 1986 or 1987. And i sang along with all my heart and intense. But i did feel really embarrassed about this. Which did not prevent me from using this in my work for art school.

I remember the special evening for the exhibit Sexposition, in 1992. A friend remarked that he would have liked me to sing a song there. Kylie or Whitney. Then, i was simply too afraid to do anything like this. And i couldn’t sing!

Right now, i’m still not the best singer, but i do enjoy it and finally i can sing in public. A bit shy, yes, but still.

So, here it is.

With all my heart, for you.

Enjoy!

Saving All My Love For You – Whitney Houston
A few stolen moments is all that we share
You’ve got your family and they need you there
Though I’ve tried to resist being last on your list
But no other man’s gonna do
So I’m saving all my love for you

It’s not very easy living all alone
My friends try and tell me find a man of my own
But each time I try I just break down and cry
‘Cause I’d rather be home feeling blue
So I’m saving all my love for you

You used to tell me we’d run away together
Love gives you the right to be free
You said be patient just wait a little longer
But that’s just an old fantasy

I’ve got to get ready just a few minutes more
Gonna get that old feeling when you walk through that door
‘Cause tonight is the night for feeling alright
We’ll be making love the whole night through
So I’m saving all my love for you
Yes I’m saving all my love
Yes I’m saving all my love for you

Published on September 8, 2016 at 6:00 by

A walk in Rotterdam: the Oude Noorden and Blijdorp

A week ago i walked around the Old North part of Rotterdam, to the Wilgenplantsoen and the Blokland Garden. I also went past the Gandhi Garden, but it was closed at the time. This week i went to the Gandhi Garden again, at a time i knew it was open.

Still no map available, so i will write you through the walk.

I walked over the Noordsingel and the Bergsingel straight to the Gandhi Garden. I spoke with John for a bit, one of the coordinators there. I told him about my walks and writing about them, informally on this website. After this i walked to the center coffee and tea drinking place. A woman was sitting there with her two dogs, Binti and India. We chatted a bit, i drank a coffee. After that i went into the Gandhi Garden and made some photos and talked with some people working there. Some of them i did recognize from my time working there a few years ago. I told them about my walking project and about the Peace Garden, where i work twice a week.

I walked to the end of the garden, where a lovely hexagonal greenhouse was standing. Inside on one side tomatoes were growing. On the other side, and in the middle there were seedlings growing in small pots.

I walked on a small path further to the back, against the wall of the old train rails. In the deep shade woods and other material was sheltered. I smelled some marihuana, but couldn’t find any plants which were looking like it. A small path went all around the gardens. In the middle the beehives were busy standing there.

I walked back to the center place where someone had made more coffee. It was time for a short break. Ronald came too, i know him from the Peace Garden. He told me there was another area with gardens up the Gordelweg. A good next stop! After i finished my coffee i went with him to the big potato hills, wrapped in chicken wire. Time for the harvest!

After that i said my goodbyes to everyone and walked over the Gordelweg on a path besides the canal. Boat houses were lining up there. Really nice to live there. Passing some chickens i saw vegetable gardens on the other side of the fence. Hoping for an entrance further along, i kept on walking past it up until i could turn the corner and i saw an open gate, lucky for me! These Gordelweg gardens were all single user gardens, some neat, some a bit more messy. Areas for compost in between, and a small sheltered area with a bench and a bit of water separated one area from the next. I didn’t see anyone around, but still, it was good to walk there and let the area slowly sink in.

After that i went back home, walking through Blijdorp. I walked through the Central Station and the city centre. At the Schouwburgplein i bought a bara curry chicken which i ate up walking to the market. The vegetable girls were not there though, i asked someone standing besides them, he said their dog had died. So sorry 🙁

So i walked back home. I started to feel a bit tired. Two thirty i was home, four hours after i had left. Time to lay my feet up for a short bit!

A good walk!

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The Gandhi Garden and the Hof van Noord entrance signs
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Grapes around the starting point of the Gandhi garden
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The Gandhi garden
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Flowers and vegetables and herbs
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The greenhouse
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The greenhouse
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A bench on the path around the garden
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Beehives
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The path
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Ronald harvesting the potatoes
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The garden
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The hexagonal greenhouse and the garden - the old train rails behind
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An insect hotel
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Chickens
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The Gordelpad
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Gordelweg gardens
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Rules and regulations of the Gordelweg gardens
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A dried up thistle
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Yellow bellpepper
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Beehives
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Harddraversstraat close to the Central Station
Published on September 7, 2016 at 6:00 by

Photo album

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My mum, my dad, my two sisters playing with me. I am the youngest.
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Pushing my own wagon, sitting besides my dad, on the beach.
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A holiday, somewhere in the Netherlands.
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School pictures, four years and five years old
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On a camel, six years old
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School pictures, fourth or fifth class and sixth class
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The first class of high school (dreadful!)
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A later years, a photo in my room with a friend
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Tenerife photos
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Our cat, Rakker and my mum
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School picture, mum, smoking and stroking Rakker
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Thirtheen, fourteen years old
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Holiday photos
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With my eldest sister, Marja
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Last Tenerife holiday. Below with Jim, the first guy who kissed me, on the beach in the moonlight
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My room upstairs
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Sixteen years old
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Klasseavond, class evening, with Sinterklaas i'm pretty sure
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Tunisia holiday, and Rakker
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An official family photo - my grandparents
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Sitting on the balcony
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A terrible holiday with a friend
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That same terrible holiday
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The evening we stayed in tents at our school, just after we did our exams
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Eightteen years old!
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Photos my sister made of me
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More photos from my sister
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A friend and the photo she made of me
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Around nineteen years old here?
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Whiteblond!
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Studying in Delft, shwoing a study for women studies we made
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Living on my own
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My mum and my dad
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Nikkie and Minnie
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Smooch!
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At artschool, the top photo was a selfportrait
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On the beach with friends
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Working at friends from my mother
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With friends in Zeeland
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Zeeland
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With a friend Saskia in Paris for an art exhibition
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Paris
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Paris
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Short hair!
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Working at the filmfestival Rotterdam
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The final page in this album
Published on September 6, 2016 at 6:00 by

Rain

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The luchtsingel, air bridge and the old Shell building
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Covers for the tomatoes and basil, with raindrops
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A wet table
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Strawberry plants on the side
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The courgette rows, the greenhouse and the water tons
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The compost heap. I asked today if it was possible to put in the wooden catty litter i've been using for the past two weeks. Yes! That will make my garbage bags a lot less full!
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Hop, only a few weeks from harvest time. We will call in a Rotterdam beer brewery to harvest all the hops for their beer.
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The tomatoes, not yet eaten by the rats - grrrr......
Published on September 5, 2016 at 6:00 by