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In between

Today i felt exhausted. I hardly slept last night. My mind is racing, thoughts jumping over each other. So i’m skipping today.

See you tomorrow!

Published on May 11, 2017 at 6:00 by

A quiet in between day

Yesterday, Sunday, i did work hard in the garden. This whole Monday i felt my arms, my shoulders and my legs. And no, i hardly slept last night. So i got back in bed this afternoon.

So this is it for today. A slow second Eastern day, as we have here in the Netherlands. I’m gonna leave it a that.


I just watched the last part of La La Land. I tried yesterday, but the movie stopped so many times, i stopped. I did cry during the last bit. I do really like it. About young people, who fall in love, who want to make it work for themselves, who want to make an impression on the world. Who slide away from each other. And end up in an different world. And i do like both actors playing the leading parts, Emma Stone and Ryan Gosling.

Also a piece from How to Tell a True Tale: Neil Gaiman on What Makes a Great Personal Story.

The strange thing about Moth stories is that none of the tricks we use to make ourselves loved or respected by others work in the ways you would imagine they ought to. The tales of how clever we were, how wise, how we won, they mostly fail. The practiced jokes and the witty one-liners all crash and burn up on a Moth stage.

Honesty matters. Vulnerability matters. Being open about who you were at a moment in time when you were in a difficult or an impossible place matters more than anything.

Having a place the story starts and a place it’s going: that’s important.

Telling your story, as honestly as you can, and leaving out the things you don’t need, that’s vital.

The Moth connects us, as humans. Because we all have stories. Or perhaps, because we are, as humans, already an assemblage of stories. And the gulf that exists between us as people is that when we look at each other we might see faces, skin color, gender, race, or attitudes, but we don’t see, we can’t see, the stories. And once we hear each other’s stories we realize that the things we see as dividing us are, all too often, illusions, falsehoods: that the walls between us are in truth no thicker than scenery.

Once more, a deep bow, and salute!


Published on April 18, 2017 at 6:00 by


Today i felt tired. Not as happy as i usually am. Walking slower. Not as talkative.

Yesterday, Monday, i brought Mieke to the vet. Her dead body. I walked up there with her in an old shoe box. It felt like walking a dead man’s march. After that i went to the Groene Passage and treated myself on a cappuccino and a carrot cake.

It will get better. For now the memories are still so fresh. This little white cat was a part of my life for the last twelve years. Mieke and Muis were pals. Lying together so many times. Me and Muis are together once more.

See you tomorrow.


Published on March 22, 2017 at 6:00 by

A lovely Wednesday

Work work work. The final bit of the job. I voted as well. I went to the dietitian. Which turned out to be the wrong day for it. I do remember the call, i did change the date in Calendar on my computer. But it wasn’t synced to my phone. So i got the normal warning yesterday and i didn’t think about it and i went. Not realizing it was postponed to next Tuesday.

It wasn’t that bad though. The weather today was extraordinary. Lovely. Sun shining. Fifteen ºC. So i slowly walked back home. Dressed a bit too warm!

More work. Music in the background. I sometimes sang along, sometimes danced a bit behind my computer or even standing in the front room. Yay!

This evening i will watch the results program of the vote today on the Dutch television. I’m curious. I might zap a bit, in between.

Next week i’m fully back here, on Yay!

Published on March 16, 2017 at 6:00 by


Today, Wednesday 15 March, it is a general election in the Netherlands. I’m gonna vote for the Party for the Animals, the Partij voor de Dieren.

I hope you will vote too, for the party you like the best!

Published on March 15, 2017 at 6:00 by

Things to do

I do have a job these weeks. It is not taking all of my time, but sometimes a bit more than i wish. Still, i need the money, and the job is quite good.

Tomorrow i will go to the garden though. Earlier this week there was a message on our whatsapp group that a Dutch television show will come and film us in the garden. But it is next week. Good, i think. A bit of time to talk about it beforehand. I’m looking forward to it.

I’m tired now. I will watch some tv for the rest of the evneing. Keuringsdienst van Waarde (NPO3), The Great Pottery Throwdown (BBC2) and Legion (Fox). All neatly after each other.

The weather is getting a bit better. Earlier this week it was raining. The whole day through. Today it was a bit dryer, at the end the sun peeked through! This weekend it will be around 13ªC, a bit of sunshine.

Ooh spring! Please come soon!

Have a good weekend. Enjoy your days. Find some rest and quiet.


Published on March 10, 2017 at 6:00 by

A good day

I got out of bed at 9:30. I had opened the door beforehand, and Mieke was lying and meowing and giving heads and stretching her paw at me several times, before she jumped of the bed. When i got out i did my usual things. Turning on the gas stove. I gave Muis some catty food, gave him an diabetes injection, took my own diabetes pills.

And then i sat on my meditation pillow for a short bit. Around five minutes i guess. Simply sitting, breathing. Listening to the sound of the stove, looking outside at the bare trees, the flat across the water. Sometimes having my eyes closed.

I got up and started to prepare my breakfast. Two eggs and hüttekase make a good omelet. Half an avocado, with some salt and pepper and some balsamic. Good.

I always leave a bit of omelet to give to Muis. He sits at my feet, usually quiet, like today. I slice his bits into little pieces. And give it to him. In ten seconds it’s all gone.

Time for some work. Well, ok, first i check out facebook, twitter, my email, all spam. And then some work.

OK i cheated a bit. Played an hour of Warcraft. After i worked for an hour. Now i got to dress up. I’m still wearing my onesie. Then i go to the garden to empty my compost bucket. After that i go to the market for some more vegetables and eggs. And then some more work! Yay!

It is cold! Brrrr. Happy i had my pink shawl on. A quick jump into the market. Gonna make another soup this afternoon. I already had some veggies at home, but i bought some broccoli and beetroots to go with it. And i treated myself to some doner. Only meat this time.

In the Albert Heijn i pinched some carrot cake frosting bit which was lying in the shop. I got some bread and cat food. That is it for now.

Gonna work a bit more, then i will watch Escape to the Country. And after that i will make my soup. Yum!

It is a quarter to eight right now. I’m gonna watch a movie. Star Wars. The first one! Will most likely watch the other ones the next days. Yesterday i watched Terminator. Been ages since i last saw it. Very 80s special effects. To be honest, the second Terminator movie, the one from 1991, i have seen more times. Enjoyed it. But this is also for the sci fi blockbuster post i’m gonna write, most likely next week.

Star Wars seen. Strange to look back and recall the memory of me seeing it in 1977 together with my nephew. We had a Big Mac in the MacDonalds beforehand. It had just opened on the Coolsingel. We had a seat in the cinema way up above.

Anyway, a day a lot more quiet than yesterday. Tomorrow i’ll be going to my mother, not sure what i’ll be posting then. For now, i’m getting ready to go to bed. Hopefully i’ll sleep all night through. Hopefully.


Published on March 1, 2017 at 6:00 by


Going out today for some shopping.

First i went to the Gimsel. I was curious about an alternative for cleaning my ears and for non plastic waste bags. Someone was filling the rows in the health and skin care area, i asked her about it. She showed me a liquid ear cleaner and an ear candle. Both were really not to my liking. I did get compostable waste bags. Small ones. Since i have not that much litter anymore, i can do with this small bag for a week or two, three. My plastic goes in the plastic container, paper in the paper one, glass in the glass one, and vegetable and catty litter stuff goes in the compost heap. Such a great difference with a year ago!

I went to the Albert Heijn next. Full milk for my oatmeal porridge, old cheese with a bonus, eco toilet paper and six tins of cat food.

I’m gonna make me a rye sandwich with some cheese with mustard next. Yum!

Published on February 9, 2017 at 6:00 by


Market day. I went to my Turkish kebab place and told Beker (I hope i’m writing this correct!) about my diabetes and that i shouldn’t eat a sandwich kebab anymore. He gave me a cup of red lentil soup. Yum!

I felt different while i walked to the market. A bit like a blanket was wrapped all around me. A bit fuzzy. I did smile to people whose looks i caught. But that was it. It is cold. Wet. Grey.

I am reading the I Ching book. The middle part, not the hexagrams itself. Information about the structure of the book, the connection with the world. It is very far from our scientific world with its mathematics and chemistry. Some thoughts in the I Ching are so far gone. Forgotten. We don’t get water from a well anymore. We simply open the tab and it comes out. Clean and clear.

This is it for today. A muddled day. A befuddled day.


Published on February 8, 2017 at 6:00 by

New things

I felt so tired today. I didn’t go out and do some shopping. I slept on the couch. I watched tv. I read a bit.

Yesterday i felt tired as well. But i did need to go out for appointments with the doctor and the dietician. The past three weeks i have been minimizing my carbohydrates. And that works! My glucose i measure each evening is going down. So i’m keeping my carbs down. It does feel a bit painful. I like cookies. I like sweet things. And that is a no go area for me. Terrible. I will try to loose a bit of weight as well. That should help keeping my diabetes in check. So yes, on the whole i’m happy with this result. Even though i will miss the cookies. 🙁

I did get some ideas for new posts, i’m happy to say. About books. Like the I Ching. And the book about Gödel, Escher and Bach i bought in 1985. And the book from Walter J. Ong, Orality and Literacy. I love that book. I borrowed it from the library a couple of times in the 90s. And finally i bought it. I might even go into Wittgenstein, Levinas, Heidegger. Will be a long time though. I do need to read the books first, and those books are difficult.

I also have a new assignment starting halfway next week. I’m happy with that. It is a design job, working on a print book. Good one. Truly happy with that.

So. I hope you will have a good weekend. Enjoy yourself. Watch some movies. Listen to some music. Have dinner with friends. Or on your own. Make a walk. Or two walks. Smile. Be happy.


Published on February 3, 2017 at 6:00 by