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Today Sunday the 16th of April i went out into town. I walked past the Rotterdam Marathon route for a bit. I’m not much of a fan to be honest, but i did walk on beside the people cheering on the runners.

I did feel sad. Last week i got an e-mail from my health insurance that my insurance is to be closed of because i do not have an address with the municipality.

I’m still unclear what to do next. Apart from going to the Paulus church and talk with the doctor and social worker. Which is what i will do, of course.

The past year has been tough. I do have a place to live, but i can not make it my permanent address. My work on my website has taken a backseat. Which does make me feel sad, but it is for the better.

I do need to go on. I have these plans to make a video clip, but i haven’t done any real work on it. I hope i will start working on it soon. I hope i can find a light in these days, dark to me.


Published on April 17, 2023 at 6:00 by

Fellowship with Men once again

I just threw the I Tjing and got exactly the same outcome as on 29 January 2020. That was the day before i moved out of my old house, my old home.

I do not know what this means. I do know i need to keep on working on my videoclip, which is still in its beginning stage.

Happy second Easter day, if you celebrate this day. I am making this post on a Friday. This weekend i am going to see my mum and have dinner with white asparagus.

See you next week!

Published on April 10, 2023 at 6:00 by

Feeling happier

The last few weeks i got this idea to make a new video clip. I was thinking of the clip i made in 22 February 2005 for The Answer. It doesn’t work anymore, of course. Flash.

First i had this idea of making it in flash and export it to a movie. I got another idea, of making it with little clips i made with my camera. Then i questioned if i would make it for The Answer. Now i’m finally at the start of this project, where all assumptions are of the table.

I hope i will finish this project. I hope i will make a videoclip i will be proud of. I will start soon, but i am gic=ving myself time to work on this.

I feel happy. Wonderful!

Published on March 27, 2023 at 6:00 by