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My House Rewatched

Today i rewatched a couple of clips i made several years ago, in 2015. Five years ago. It feels like yesterday, but it is also so far away.

The video i made in my house touched me. My cats are in there. Both of them, still looking healthy, a bit overweight. My things, my bed, the living room, the sliding doors.

It is good i’m watching these clips once again. I see the wobbliness, the haphazard editing. But i also see my life as it was then. I see the joy i feel while i am filming.

I have come a long way. I am still going on. I am not giving up. Not yet. Not while i have something to say. Something i believe in. With the whole of my heart.


Published on June 30, 2020 at 6:00 by


The past six months i have been filming and editing and thinking about this short film. The last two months i asked friends if they wanted to participate. Most replied with a yes. Something i am very happy with. I am still not completely sure what this movie is about. One part is about people. Walking, playing, shopping. Living their lives. It is also about me living my life here in the centre of Rotterdam. I’m open to other meanings.

I hope you like it. Enjoy 🙂

Published on December 31, 2018 at 6:00 by


I hope you will enjoy the video Spring. It was a pleasure working on it for the past months.

I will take a short vacation for the next two weeks. Baking cakes for a friend’s wedding. Enjoying my time off.


Published on June 15, 2018 at 6:00 by

The end

This is it. The end.

The thought came upon me earlier this week. Tuesday. I cried. I didn’t want to do this. But yes. I am gonna finish working on For several reasons. First, i don’t have the money to pay for the hosting. So this place will be up and running only for a couple of weeks more. Second, my house will be sold. Next week the real estate agent will come by. I’m lucky in that sense. My house will not be auctioned, but sold regularly. Which hopefully leaves me with enough money to last me three or four years.

This is difficult. But i will be fine. I will still post photos on instagram, post updates on facebook, talk a bit on twitter. I won’t be gone. But this place will be finished. Also, because i feel i have done here what i set out to do. Thinking. Working. Looking. Writing. I found a few things i really like. Singing, yes. Filming, yes. So i have gained an awful lot.

Ending this blog does hurt a bit. I’ve said here multiple times how much i love to work here. Each day was a different day. Some very unexpected, others not that much. But all together the past three years felt amazing.

I’m not sure why i’m ending this now. Well, apart from the practical reasons i mentioned. Also, i do want to stay in control, not feel overwhelmed by what is happening. Compared to what happens to other people, my life still is quiet and not very exiting.

The final page i will give you is the chronological page, with every post i made here linked on it. Enjoy!

I will leave you with what to me is still the best i made here, the video clips.

Finally, as a wave goodbye, one of my favorite songs, Let it go.

Let it go
The snow glows white on the mountain tonight
Not a footprint to be seen
A kingdom of isolation,
And it looks like I’m the queen.

The wind is howling like this swirling storm inside
Couldn’t keep it in, heaven knows I tried!

Don’t let them in, don’t let them see
Be the good girl you always have to be
Conceal, don’t feel, don’t let them know
Well, now they know!

Let it go, let it go
Can’t hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn away and slam the door!

I don’t care
What they’re going to say
Let the storm rage on,
The cold never bothered me anyway!

It’s funny how some distance
Makes everything seem small
And the fears that once controlled me
Can’t get to me at all!

It’s time to see what I can do
To test the limits and break through
No right, no wrong, no rules for me I’m free!

Let it go, let it go
I am one with the wind and sky
Let it go, let it go
You’ll never see me cry!

Here I stand
And here I’ll stay
Let the storm rage on!

My power flurries through the air into the ground
My soul is spiraling in frozen fractals all around
And one thought crystallizes like an icy blast
I’m never going back,
The past is in the past!

Let it go, let it go
And I’ll rise like the break of dawn
Let it go, let it go
That perfect girl is gone!

Here I stand
In the light of day
Let the storm rage on,
The cold never bothered me anyway!

Goodbye for now,

With love, Ellen

Published on November 10, 2017 at 6:00 by

Somebody to love

This video clip is not a professional one. Of course not. I am drawn between embarrassment and a real felt sadness when i watch this clip.

It has turned out very different from my initial idea. Not sharply cut, not completely in sync with the voice, not a super fast editing. I don’t have the software. I don’t have the amount of RAM. I don’t have the right camera. I have also not given myself enough time.

But still, i do like this video. I do see something in me, something honest. The song itself i like, but it was never a clear favorite of mine. It might turn out like that i admit. Once i have a bit more distance from making this video.

So i leave you with this video. I do hope you find some pleasure in watching it.

Published on February 1, 2017 at 6:00 by


I’m happy with this new video clip. It is a clip filled with a selection of Dutch ads, the same idea as in June 2015 for the Ads clip. I got the idea from the music, Pausensassa from Der Plan. I’ve known this song for around 35 years. I have the album! This song is a small favorite of mine. Part of most party lists i made over the years.

While doing a search on the internet i found a present i made with the same title pausensassa.

I hope you will enjoy the clip.

For the ones curious, there is a youtube video with this song and the song Renate.

Published on January 26, 2017 at 6:00 by

Saving All My Love For You

The idea for this clip popped late last week. Or over the weekend. Not sure to be honest.

I do love this song. Saving All My Love For You. On Whitney Houston’s first album. I bought this album in 1986 or 1987. And i sang along with all my heart and intense. But i did feel really embarrassed about this. Which did not prevent me from using this in my work for art school.

I remember the special evening for the exhibit Sexposition, in 1992. A friend remarked that he would have liked me to sing a song there. Kylie or Whitney. Then, i was simply too afraid to do anything like this. And i couldn’t sing!

Right now, i’m still not the best singer, but i do enjoy it and finally i can sing in public. A bit shy, yes, but still.

So, here it is.

With all my heart, for you.


Saving All My Love For You – Whitney Houston
A few stolen moments is all that we share
You’ve got your family and they need you there
Though I’ve tried to resist being last on your list
But no other man’s gonna do
So I’m saving all my love for you

It’s not very easy living all alone
My friends try and tell me find a man of my own
But each time I try I just break down and cry
‘Cause I’d rather be home feeling blue
So I’m saving all my love for you

You used to tell me we’d run away together
Love gives you the right to be free
You said be patient just wait a little longer
But that’s just an old fantasy

I’ve got to get ready just a few minutes more
Gonna get that old feeling when you walk through that door
‘Cause tonight is the night for feeling alright
We’ll be making love the whole night through
So I’m saving all my love for you
Yes I’m saving all my love
Yes I’m saving all my love for you

Published on September 8, 2016 at 6:00 by