The past six months i have been filming and editing and thinking about this short film. The last two months i asked friends if they wanted to participate. Most replied with a yes. Something i am very happy with. I am still not completely sure what this movie is about. One part is about people. Walking, playing, shopping. Living their lives. It is also about me living my life here in the centre of Rotterdam. I’m open to other meanings.
The thought came upon me earlier this week. Tuesday. I cried. I didn’t want to do this. But yes. I am gonna finish working on ellenpronk.com. For several reasons. First, i don’t have the money to pay for the hosting. So this place will be up and running only for a couple of weeks more. Second, my house will be sold. Next week the real estate agent will come by. I’m lucky in that sense. My house will not be auctioned, but sold regularly. Which hopefully leaves me with enough money to last me three or four years.
This is difficult. But i will be fine. I will still post photos on instagram, post updates on facebook, talk a bit on twitter. I won’t be gone. But this place will be finished. Also, because i feel i have done here what i set out to do. Thinking. Working. Looking. Writing. I found a few things i really like. Singing, yes. Filming, yes. So i have gained an awful lot.
Ending this blog does hurt a bit. I’ve said here multiple times how much i love to work here. Each day was a different day. Some very unexpected, others not that much. But all together the past three years felt amazing.
I’m not sure why i’m ending this now. Well, apart from the practical reasons i mentioned. Also, i do want to stay in control, not feel overwhelmed by what is happening. Compared to what happens to other people, my life still is quiet and not very exiting.
This video clip is not a professional one. Of course not. I am drawn between embarrassment and a real felt sadness when i watch this clip.
It has turned out very different from my initial idea. Not sharply cut, not completely in sync with the voice, not a super fast editing. I don’t have the software. I don’t have the amount of RAM. I don’t have the right camera. I have also not given myself enough time.
But still, i do like this video. I do see something in me, something honest. The song itself i like, but it was never a clear favorite of mine. It might turn out like that i admit. Once i have a bit more distance from making this video.
So i leave you with this video. I do hope you find some pleasure in watching it.
I’m happy with this new video clip. It is a clip filled with a selection of Dutch ads, the same idea as in June 2015 for the Ads clip. I got the idea from the music, Pausensassa from Der Plan. I’ve known this song for around 35 years. I have the album! This song is a small favorite of mine. Part of most party lists i made over the years.
The idea for this clip popped late last week. Or over the weekend. Not sure to be honest.
I do love this song. Saving All My Love For You. On Whitney Houston’s first album. I bought this album in 1986 or 1987. And i sang along with all my heart and intense. But i did feel really embarrassed about this. Which did not prevent me from using this in my work for art school.
I remember the special evening for the exhibit Sexposition, in 1992. A friend remarked that he would have liked me to sing a song there. Kylie or Whitney. Then, i was simply too afraid to do anything like this. And i couldn’t sing!
Right now, i’m still not the best singer, but i do enjoy it and finally i can sing in public. A bit shy, yes, but still.
So, here it is.
With all my heart, for you.
Saving All My Love For You – Whitney Houston
A few stolen moments is all that we share
You’ve got your family and they need you there
Though I’ve tried to resist being last on your list
But no other man’s gonna do
So I’m saving all my love for you
It’s not very easy living all alone
My friends try and tell me find a man of my own
But each time I try I just break down and cry
‘Cause I’d rather be home feeling blue
So I’m saving all my love for you
You used to tell me we’d run away together
Love gives you the right to be free
You said be patient just wait a little longer
But that’s just an old fantasy
I’ve got to get ready just a few minutes more
Gonna get that old feeling when you walk through that door
‘Cause tonight is the night for feeling alright
We’ll be making love the whole night through
So I’m saving all my love for you
Yes I’m saving all my love
Yes I’m saving all my love for you
Last week i got the idea of making a video of the Peace Garden. The garden i work at twice a week since this years April. I’ve made several posts about different aspects of this garden. The organic, permaculture aspect, the weeds, bad and good, the vegetables, the flowers. And the people of course. I had to get used to all the various people working at the garden.
So this is my last post for two weeks. I like it. Lots.
I love the music. Which i have known since it was released in 1981. Double 12″. Because that gave you more freedom in listening to the songs.
Anyways, i loved them. A couple of years later, when i think i went to my mum, i had bought the Face at the train station. In the train i read this article about a new artist and i sat up straight. Neneh Cherry. From Rip Rig & Panic. Yay! I did buy her album and the 12″ for Buffalo Stance. And her later albums. And she is only around two weeks younger than me.
Enjoy the video. Enjoy the summer! The hopefully warm weather! And if you live on the south side of the planet, enjoy the winter!
Today, Wednesday, i got a new idea for a video. Strange it didn’t come up before. I will make a video in the garden. Already searching for the right music. Not sure how i will do it. People or no people? The garden from a distance, for an overview. The garden up close, the flowers, the insects, butterflies, worms. The plants, the fruits, the vegetables.
I will start this Friday. Looking forward to it.
As a reminder, a repeat of the video’s i made sofar.
Halfway last week i got this idea of filming ads on tv and making something with them. I made two long shots of ad breaks and started to work with them. I enjoyed it. The material is lovely. I also liked the grainy tv images. First i wanted to use a tripod, but later on i simply made shots with the camera in my hand.
Music was a bit hard. First i tried Miss Kittin. But then i thought of this song i really like and from which i have no clue how i got to know it: Motor from Jewelz and Sparks.
To be honest, up until half this day i thought i would publish this clip the end of this week. But i realized it was nearly done.
I did add some images of the movie Independence Day in between. Especially the plane flying into the fire. It is a bit hectic, with the music, the images.
When i watched it coming together i sat there with hands before my mouth and tears in my eyes.