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Money is a myth

This tweet stayed in my head over the past day: money is a myth. It is part of a long tweet line from Kameel Galeev (Not sure this is his real name, but it is his twitter name).

I am against war, of course. But in this case i am all for the Ukrainian people fighting against the Russians. It is deeply tragic that Russia invaded the Ukraine. One name which surfaces is of the philosopher Dugin. Dugin is one of the main inspirations of Putin.

According to Dugin, the forces of liberal and capitalist Western civilization represent what the ancient Greeks called ὕβρις (hubris), “the essential form of titanism” (the anti-ideal form), which opposes Heaven (“the ideal form—in terms of space, time, being”). In other words, the West would summarize “the revolt of the Earth against Heaven”. To what he calls the West’s “atomizing” universalism, Dugin contrasts an apophatic universalism, expressed in the political idea of “empire”. Values of democracy, human rights, individualism are considered by him not to be universal but uniquely Western.

These thoughts are alien to me. I am a woman born in Western Europe raised with the understanding of freedom, rationalism, human rights, liberal democracy, freedom of conscience and expression. That is my world. I would pick it anytime over and over again. It is impossible for me to pick something else to guide my life with.

Even though, i do try to understand these feelings. I do find this very hard though.

Well, this post is a bit of a mix up. Going from money is a myth to Dugin was not my intention. I am angry and upset by the current events on our world platform. I’ll go back and watch television and twitter. Salute!

Published on March 1, 2022 at 6:00 by

Get free out of jail

I feel really tired, even though last night i slept quite well. But the two nights (or was it three?) before i slept hardly at all.

So i’m gonna use my free out of jail card. Talk to you tomorrow!

Published on January 26, 2022 at 6:00 by

How i work

There is a rhythm to it. It has grown over time. I still enjoy the pace i set here, five updates a week, five weeks free each year. Or four weeks. It depends on how i feel.

The last few weeks i followed the same pattern: one day a drawing, another day some photos, one day something i write, another day i throw the I Ching or i quote from the Tao Te Ching. And the last week of last year i made a TikTok clip.

I’m still not sure about TikTok. I have only made the one clip, a beginner one. But it is on my mind. Not that i value much of what i have seen on TikTok sofar. But it is still a world to discover for me. I will see what if any will grow out of it.

The thought for this post came halfway during the day. Sunday. This morning the mind was blurry. I wasn’t really thinking about what i would do today for the post. In the afternoon the thought came up. How i work here. Strange how i never thought of that before. But here it is.

I might do another TikTok clip this week. I may write another piece. I enjoyed the one i wrote last week. That one was made in steps. First i thought i would make something really well written, rewrite everything, delete some stuff. But no, it was all in there, but in a small font. Smaller as it got older.

So i got several easy ones like the I Ching, some which require some work, but are not difficult, like making photographs, some which require inspiration, like making drawings. And then some which came back to me, filming. This time short films. And then of course writing something. It could be a memory, or something i came across during the day, or something i am thinking about.

That is it for now.


Published on January 10, 2022 at 6:00 by

Things on my mind

Fuck it.

Fuck it all.

I am so afraid. I feel like a train running towards the end of the line and not slowing down. Crash and burn i will, i’m sure.

To me one of the causes of the current corona-crisis is the amount of people and cattle living on our earth, the current flying movements, deforestation. Amongst other things.

The current figures from January 05, 2022, 13:43 GMT are:

Coronavirus Cases: 295,850,800

Deaths: 5,476,857

Recovered: 256,292,665

This is severe, but not as severe as other pandemics covering the world. HIV/AIDS caused 32.7 million deaths sice the epidemic started in the early 70s. The Spanish flue infected half a billion people wordwide killing 20 to 100 million. The Black Death gave an estimation of between 75 to 200 million deaths. In percentages against the total world population these figures are even more severe.

Our current system is far from infallible. It is confusing to me. Some people i trust. But there is a multitude of voices and posts and articles each screaming loudly its own truth.

I am usually a happy person. When i walk about i say good day to people i come across. Well, the ones i catch the eyes of. But the past half year was a bit more difficult. Especially at night i lie awake for hours, worrying about the future. My money is running out. A few months ago i thought about this and half decided to go looking for a job in the new year. Now it is 2022, and i decided against that. I still have a few thousand euros, still enough for a couple of months. And i simply do not want to work for money. I refuse. I don’t know what i will do when i run out and things are still the same in my life. I do hope things will not be the same. My big hope. That i will write something here, or make a drawing, or make photographs. Anything to get me out of here.

We are getting closer to two years of having the corona virus traveling around the world. So far i never had corona. I did get two vaccinations. Tuesday 4 January i have gotten my third one. Partly i get these vaccinations because of my diabetes. I live a quiet life, spending most of my time alone at home. I enjoy making long walks, but lately it is not any longer than walking into town or a park. Still forty five minutes.

Published on January 7, 2022 at 6:00 by

Todays things to remember

The day i got my booster vaccination.
Be proud (Wees trots) at the top of the building.
The house where an old friend of mine used to live. It is being renovated right now.
My old house. Since the renovation there are some house numbers missing. The way in is now on the side street.
Published on January 5, 2022 at 6:00 by

Standstill – Innocence

12. P’i / Standstill [Stagnation]


This hexagram is the opposite of the preceding one. Heaven is above, drawing farther and farther away, while the earth below sinks farther into the depths. The creative powers are not in relation. It is a time of standstill and decline. This hexagram is linked with the seventh month (August-September), when the year has passed its zenith and autumnal decay is setting in.


STANDSTILL. Evil people do not further
The perseverance of the superior man.
The great departs; the small approaches.

Heaven and earth are out of communion and all things are benumbed. What is above has no relation to what is below, and on earth confusion and disorder prevail. The dark power is within, the light power is without. Weakness is within, harshness without. Within are the inferior, and without are the superior. The way of inferior people is in ascent; the way of superior people is one the decline. But the superior people do not allow themselves to be turned from their principles. If the possibility of exerting influence is closed to them, they nevertheless remain faithful to their principles and withdraw into seclusion.


Heaven and earth do not unite:
The image of STANDSTILL.
Thus the superior man falls back upon his inner worth
In order to escape the difficulties.
He does not permit himself to be honored with revenue.

When, owing to the influence of inferior men, mutual mistrust prevails in public life, fruitful activity is rendered impossible, because the fundaments are wrong. Therefore the superior man knows what he must do under such circumstances; he does not allow himself to be tempted by dazzling offers to take part in public activities. This would only expose him to danger, since he cannot assent to the meanness of the others. He therefore hides his worth and withdraws into seclusion.


Six at the beginning means:
When ribbon grass is pulled up, the sod comes with it.
Each according to his kind.
Perseverance brings good fortune and success.

The text is almost the same as that of the first line of the preceding hexagram, but with a contrary meaning. In the latter a man is drawing another along with him on the road to an official career; here a man is drawing another with him into retirement form public life. This is why the text says here, “Perseverance brings good fortune and success,” and not “Undertakings bring good fortune.” If it becomes impossible to make our influence count, it is only by retirement that we spare ourselves humiliation. Success in a higher sense can be ours, because we know how to safeguard the value of our personalities.

25. Wu Wang / Innocence (The Unexpected)


Ch’ien, heaven is above; Chên, movement, is below. The lower trigram Chên is under the influence of the strong line it has received form above, from heaven. When, in accord with this, movement follows the law of heaven, man is innocent and without guile. His mind is natural and true, unshadowed by reflection or ulterior designs. For wherever conscious purpose is to be seen, there the truth and innocence of nature have been lost. Nature that is not directed by the spirit is not true but degenerate nature. Starting out with the idea of the natural, the train of thought in part goes somewhat further and thus the hexagram includes also the idea of the fundamental or unexpected.


INNOCENCE. Supreme success.
Perseverance furthers.
If someone is not as he should be,
He has misfortune,
And it does not further him
To undertake anything.

Man has received from heaven a nature innately good, to guide him in all his movements. By devotion to this divine spirit within himself, he attains an unsullied innocence that leads him to do right with instinctive sureness and without any ulterior thought of reward and personal advantage. This instinctive certainty brings about supreme success and ‘furthers through perseverance”. However, not everything instinctive is nature in this higher sense of the word, but only that which is right and in accord with the will of heaven. Without this quality of rightness, an unreflecting, instinctive way of acting brings only misfortune. Confucius says about this: “He who departs from innocence, what does he come to? Heaven’s will and blessing do not go with his deeds.”


Under heaven thunder rolls:
All things attain the natural state of innocence.
Thus the kings of old,
Rich in virtue, and in harmony with the time,
Fostered and nourished all beings.

In springtime when thunder, life energy, begins to move again under the heavens, everything sprouts and grows, and all beings receive for the creative activity of nature the childlike innocence of their original state. So it is with the good rulers of mankind: drawing on the spiritual wealth at their command, they take care of all forms of life and all forms of culture and do everything to further them, and at the proper time.

Published on December 13, 2021 at 6:00 by