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This Friday i saw this movie. I loved it. Especially the performance bits, i admit, but i also do like the overall idea and execution. Recommended!

Published on April 22, 2019 at 6:00 by

Rhubarb almond cake

Yesterday at the garden i picked a few rhubarb stems. My first ever! So today i baked a rhubarb almond cake, which i will bring with me to the garden tomorrow. I just had my first piece. Lovely!

I used this recipe from sugaryandbuttery.com as a basis. I did not use regular sugar for this, but erythritol, which doesn’t spike my glucose. I also used wheat flour in stead of corn flour. I don’t mind the gluten. I used my brownie 20×20 cm form.

Ingredients

  • 6 eggs, separated
  • 200 gr erythritol powdered (i use my coffee grinder to powder)
  • 60 gr wheat flour
  • 1 teaspoon baking powder
  • 200 gr almond flour
  • 1 packet of vanilla sugar
  • pinch of salt
  • 3 stalks of rhubarb (this is all i had picked in the garden – was luckily enough for the cake)
  • sliced almonds

Instructions

  1. Preheat oven to 160ºC and grease a 20×20 cm rectangle cake pan.
  2. Wash, peel and cut rhubarb, set aside.
  3. Beat the egg yolks, vanilla and sugar for about 5 minutes until light and creamy.
  4. Add flour, baking powder and salt. Set aside.
  5. Beat the egg whites until stiff.
  6. Carefully fold the almond flour and egg yolk batter into the egg whites, do not stir or beat.
  7. Pour batter in cake pan and sprinkle the rhubarb pieces on top evenly.
  8. Bake for 20 mins.
  9. Sprinkle the almond slices over the cake and bake for another 30 mins.
  10. Let cool or enjoy warm.
The egg yolks, powdered erythritol and vanilla sugar beaten until it is light and creamy
The egg whites beaten stiff
The almond flour
The rhubarb!
The cake with the sliced rhubarb on top, before it went into the oven
The finished cake 🙂
Published on April 19, 2019 at 6:00 by

No force

I’m still thinking. I have grown more quiet here, on ellenpronk.com. I try to live my life as good as possible. Be open towards the people i meet. Friendly. It is hard. I still find myself talking too much. Not listening enough.

Still thinking. This morning the thought came up. I’m still using too much force. I’m still trying to break through. I’m still trying. I still need to loose myself, relax. Look outside and see what is there. Look inside and see what is in there. Ease up.

I still trust myself. Really. It is hard. I do worry sometimes. Practical things. Where i live. Money. Sure. But yes, i still trust myself.

Thank you for your patience.

*smile*

Reading
I am reading a collection of essays written by the Dutch writer Connie Palmen (Dutch Wikipedia article) called Het Drama van de Afhankelijkheid. I haven’t read any previous books from her. I enjoy these essays. I might read more books from her.

I am noticing a different form of reading. Slower. Reading the text out loud in my head. Reading paragraphs multiple times.

This is different from my escapist form of reading. In this form i read a story, in which i loose myself.

It is a lot more strenuous to read in this non-escapist way. I catch myself trying to loose myself every sentence. I have to keep myself on track. Read slow and carefully. Do not enjoy yourself. Think!

Published on April 18, 2019 at 6:00 by

The Family

37. Chia Jên / The Family [The Clan]

above SUN THE GENTLE, WIND
below LI THE CLINGING, FIRE

The hexagram represents the laws obtaining within the family. The strong line at the top represents the father, the lowest the son. The strong line in the fifth place represents the husband, the yielding second line the wife. On the other hand, the tow strong lines in the fifth and the third place represent two brothers, and the two weak lines correlated with them in the fourth and the second place stand for their respective wives. Thus all the connections and relationships within the family find their appropriate expression. Each individual line has the character according with its place. The fact that a strong line occupies the sixth place-where a weak line might be expected-indicates very clearly the strong leadership that must come from the head of the family. The line is to be considered here not in its quality as the sixth but in its quality as the top line. THE FAMILY shows the laws operative within the household that, transferred to outside life, keep the state and the world in order. The influence that goes out from within the family is represented by the symbol of the wind created by fire.

THE JUDGMENT

THE FAMILY. The perseverance of the woman furthers.

The foundation of the family is the relationship between husband and wife. The tie that hold the family together lies in the loyalty and perseverance of the wife. The tie that holds the family together lies in the loyalty and perseverance of the wife. Her place is within (second line), while that of the husband is without (fifth line). It is in accord with the great laws of nature that husband and wife take their proper places. Within the family a strong authority is needed; this is represented by the parents. If the father is really a father and the son a son, if the elder brother fulfills his position, and the younger fulfills his, if the husband is really a husband and the wife a wife, then the family is in order. When the family is in order, all the social relationships of mankind will be in order.
Three of the five social relationships are to be found within the family-that between father and son, which is the relation of love, that between the husband and wife, which is the relation of chaste conduct, and that between elder and younger brother, which is the relation of correctness. The loving reverence of the son is then carried over to the prince in the form of faithfulness to duty; the affection and correctness of behavior existing between the two brothers are extended to a friend in the form of loyalty, and to a person of superior rank in the form of deference. The family is society in the embryo; it is the native soil on which performance of moral duty is made early through natural affection, so that within a small circle a basis of moral practice is created, and this is later widened to include human relationships in general.

THE IMAGE

Wind comes forth from fire:
The image of THE FAMILY.
Thus the superior man has substance in his words
And duration in his way of life.

Heat creates energy: this is signified by the wind stirred up by the fire and issuing forth form it. This represents influence working from within outward. The same thing is needed in the regulation of the family. Here too the influence on others must proceed form one’s own person. In order to be capable of producing such an influence, one’s words must have power, and this they can have only if they are based on something real, just as flame depends on its fuel Words have influence only when they are pertinent and clearly related to definite circumstances. General discourses and admonitions have no effect whatsoever. Furthermore, the words must be supported by one’s entire conduct, just as the wind is made effective by am impression on others that they can adapt and conform to it. If words and conduct are not in accord and consistent, they will have no effect.

Published on April 16, 2019 at 6:00 by