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Not sure, i think

Thinking about a few things. Some people of days old i came across this week, or whose message on facebook stuck out with me.

But on the whole, i feel quiet. I am giving myself a bit of time to think about my life. What i want, what i got, what i wish for. Also, what i don’t want. Most importantly.

I sometimes feel i shouldn’t give up my life, the life i have right now. When i feel normal. But it is moving on as i write. No way to stop it. Not sure i really want to.

Have a good weekend.


Published on June 10, 2016 at 6:00 by

A warm Tuesday

It is Tuesday. Market day. I did get me a chip with mayo, curry sauce and onions. Sitting on a stone sitting bench all along the side of the library. Busy today.

This morning i started reading further in a book by Walter J. Ong, Orality and Literacy: The Technologizing of the Word (1982). Just yet i went through comments on the goodreads page for this book. I got this book from the library three or four times. Early 2000 i finally bought it. The book has many good viewpoints on the change of a person growing up in a oral culture to a person growing up in a literate culture. Oral culture is very different, a culture in which words are events, actions. Words live and need to be repeated all the time. In a literate culture words are more static, printed on a page. The mind is freer to go its own way in a way.

Since this book is written in 1982, there is no section on the development of internet and its many different uses in society.

I downloaded another book this week: How the other Half Dies (1976), by Susan George. I still need to read this book thoroughly. This is for a post about food i plan to write soon. Not from a science point of view, but from a personal one. These past two years i have thought more about this. I have changed my buying patterns. I am making more things myself from a limited amount of materials. It is not a hippy thing, but a deeply felt sensible way of looking at this world and the way it is heading. I feel quite strongly about this and i do know we need to go another route soon. If there is anything i can do about this, i will help out.

Well. This is enough for today.

Enjoy your Wednesday!

Published on June 8, 2016 at 6:00 by


I sat on the black stone bench around the library eating my chips with mayo and curry and onions. Looking at the faces of the people walking past. Some were distrustful. Some were closed up inside. Some were thinking of what they were going to do. Some were not thinking at all. Some were talking. Some were listening.

I moved to the wooden benches around the Blaak station. I looked at the birds.

I got my veggies. More tomatoes, some apples, some strawberries.

Then into the Albert Heijn. Cookies, cottage cheese, food for my cats, eggs.

Strange how the world simply goes on and on all the time. It simply doesn’t stop and think. No time.

Another turn.

Published on May 18, 2016 at 6:00 by


Whitsunday, Pentecost. In Dutch, Pinksteren.

I went to the Vredestuin today. People were dropping in slowly. We had a bit of coffee before we started working. I went in the greenhouse and planted cucumber, pumpkin, a sort of broccoli / quinoa plant, Marigold. First i put all the pots in the trays, leaving one pot part empty so it is easier to water the tray. I went through the soil and made all the lumps smaller. Then i filled all the pots. I pressed with a filled pot all the soil a bit tighter. Cucumbers and pumpkins were seeded with two, the other ones, the broccoli type and the Marigold were planted with 5 seeds a pot. Really tiny seeds, hard to separate, but i managed.

I took home some spring onions, potatoes, lettuce. Tomorrow i will make some onion and potato soup, with the lettuce. I was too tired this evening to do anything with it.

Tomorrow i will go to the Central Station, where the last week build stairs to the top of the Groot Handelsgebouw will be opened. I will make a film of the stairs itself, the people climbing it and the view from the rooftop. Hopefully i’ll have the video edited by the end of the week.

I’m gonna lye on the couch for a bit more. I will look for something warm first. It is a bit cold, and i have already put out my stove. It’ll get better, by the end of the week. A glass of red wine to accompany me. Watching a James Bond movie. I’ll turn into bed early this evening.

Bye bye!

Published on May 16, 2016 at 6:00 by

A beautiful Sunday

This beautiful Sunday, sunshine all day long, a little cool wind, absolutely gorgeous. I did work in the garden. We went to the part behind the Shell fueling station. Some digging, some planting, some helping setting up the plastic tubes for putting the nets over to protect the newly planted kohlrabi from the blackbirds. A lot of talking. About vegan diet, stop smoking, stop drinking (not me!), about blogging not being a favourite pastime (not me!). Playing with the heavy soil, or rather, clay. Making a cube with it. Well, sort of.

I took a shower straight after i got home. I finished up the soup i started this morning. A vegetable tomato bellpepper onion broad bean carrot leek sort of soup with some orzo and homemade meat balls. Hmmm.. 🙂

And now, yes, now, i feel tired. I was there for around four hours, i tried staying in the shade, but i was still happy i put on sun milk over my legs, arms and face. I do see a little bit of light red on my skin, but not too much.

I enjoy it. It is good for me now. So yeah, even though it takes up a lot of time on my Sunday, i’m happy i’m doing this.

Sleepy time for now. Hopefully!

Ooh i forgot! Tomorrow, 9 May, Mercury will move past the sun in the daytime. You do need a solar filter to see it. Which i haven’t got. But still.

Published on May 9, 2016 at 6:00 by

An average day

Still woke up around four deep in the night. Since i can sleep in in the morning, it’s not that bad. Still, a good night sleep would be good one day.

I went to the market to get some veggies. And some war chips! That is chips with mayonaise, peanutbutter sauce and onions. I added some sambal too.

After that i went to the veggies stall. I only spend € 2,90. That is like nothing. Back home i watched some Masterchef, after that Escape to the Country. I did fall asleep for a short bit.

I had put a red bell pepper in the oven for 45 minutes and put it in a small bag afterwards and tied it up. After around fifteen minutes i could easily get of the skin. I also removed the skin of some chickpeas i cooked last sunday and baked them. I still need to make the hummus. Tomorrow! I also sliced some radishes and washed some spinach i got from the garden this sunday.

For now, i will go and watch The Hunger Games: Catching Fire. I like the series.

I will go and make walks over the next week. It will be warmer, over 20 degrees in the weekend! Not sure where i will go, i will need to do some research. Looking forward to that!

Tomorrow i just might do a walk in the Kralingse Bos. Still one of my favourite places to go.

Bye bye!

Published on May 4, 2016 at 6:00 by

Monday, 25 April 2016

I got out around a quarter past nine. Well, i did get out earlier, around seven thirty, gave my cats a bit of food, went to the toilet and went back in bed. I did check my rss feeds for around 15 minutes. Then i turned over.

So when i got out, i cleaned the catty litter box, brushed around the box to get it clean, gave my cats some new water. I put on an egg with water to softly boil. Went behind the computer. Hmm… not sure, i could have sat behind my computer first. Well, i forgot! But i know i did sit behind the computer and posted on facebook about my post about the Vredestuin. After i reread the post and corrected a few things.

The water for my egg boiled. I turn it of and set the timer on my phone. Four minutes. I slice the remaining pieces of bread. Yes. Some butter, some pepper, some salt. Breakfast!

Some vanilla world of warcraft. Two quests done. Some cooking. A bit of blacksmithing. My paladin did turn 31 today!

Shopping. Got me some honey, peanut butter, two croissants, yoghurt, cottage cheese. Also some cream for coffee, noodle soup, cat food, toilet paper.

When i got back home i did do some work. Updating some wordpress, some plugins. Adding a twitter plugin, setting the customer key. Done.

Turning on the television. Escape to the Country. Yeah. I love this show. 🙂

Around five i turned on the oven. Using a very simple recipe from James Martin. Only flour, salt, bicarbonate, buttermilk. No honey, no butter, no eggs. I did add a few more drops of the buttermilk, it got very dry.

Phonecall about the work i just did. Went well.

Bread and soup for dinner. The parsnips i put in cold water, they got a bit dry. I’ll cook them tomorrow.

Watched some De wereld draait door. Nothing too exciting. Nothing much i want to know. Koken met van Boven. Chickpeas! Hmm, that farinata looks great. I should go and get me some chickpea flour and make one. With the hummus, the fried chickpeas and the spinach. And some feta. Oooh……..

And in the meantime i’m thinking about what to do for this post. So i go sit behind the computer, write something on facebook. Started this post. Look for the title of Koken met van Boven.

OK, done. A longer post than i anticipated. And now, i think i’m gonna watch some Masterchef. And then.. Game of Thrones, S06E01. Yay!

PS. Pfff, Game of Thrones fell through. Will watch it some time this tuesday.

Published on April 26, 2016 at 6:00 by

A happy day again

Today i went to the market. Waiting for the traffic lights, i smiled at a woman. I apologized straight after. “I feel so happy”, i said. She smiled. “I don’t see too well”, she said. “But please be happy!”

I’m paraphrasing. The conversation was in Dutch of course.

I do feel happy today. My mind spins up and out. Last night i woke up around four. I was lying awake for a bit. I turned on the lights. Read some new rss posts on my iPad. Got out of bed and stroked my cats. Went in again. Finally fell asleep.

Did do some bibbly-o-tek work today. Aah, thats what i suddenly realized last night, i never got a backup from the database. I did log in the old hosting. Couldn’t get to the phpMyAdmin page. But luckily there was a backup page where i could get an entire backup of databases and other stuff, so i turned that on. Took a while, around half an hour. I did get the back up. Yay!

So i did spend some time copying a new wordpress setup to my own hosting, setting up the database, copying the images and clips and audio. Most of the links are working now. But i will change the theme. It’s ten years old and showing its age. Not responsive one bit. So yeah. I will also change the flash flv files. That will take a bit longer. And change the gigography page. I always enjoyed the hovers, but that is so ten years ago. I also do need to add all the dates after 2006. Pfff.

Anyway, rambling on a bit. Not a clear day. Still, a happy day!

Published on April 6, 2016 at 6:00 by


When i reread the post Mixed thoughts i was so embarrassed. Not the entire post. The first part is ok. But the middle and the end, eew. Well, apart from the final sentences, they were alright. The post felt to me to be too thought out. Too much thought put into it. Too heavy. So i felt happy to leave it behind me and not think about it anymore. “Writing this post gives me a chance to sort my thoughts.” I guess that is true.

So i postponed my post about art. Hmmm. That post is still hazy in my mind. I have a document with some lines. Most of which i will not use. But i do need to try to find what i want to say, in the coming week or two.

This afternoon i went out and made a short walk through the center. I sat on the Grotekerkplein for a bit. I had taken of my coat. Enjoying the sunshine. Looking at the buildings, at the sky, at the water, at the doves walking around, flying up at times, at the people sitting around, walking past.


I walked to the AH after that. I heard some music from somewhere. I looked down, to the wooden platform closer to the water. I saw a mobile phone lying on a bench, with a yellow small cylinder besides it. Two girls were just walking to that bench, but they didn’t pick up the phone. I went down the stairs and looked at the phone. The yellow cylinder turned out to be a music box. I turned of the music. The phone was unlocked. I talked to the girls, but they didn’t know. My first thought was to bring the phone to the police. But one of the girls said to look at the contacts. It was a Samsung phone, which i never handled myself. But she showed me. I looked through the log file of previous calls. I decided to call someone from it. I got a girl on the line. I explained i had found the phone. She asked me if they could get the phone later that evening, which was fine with me.

They just got here. I gave them the phone. A good deed of the day.

Published on March 31, 2016 at 6:00 by