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The Beach

This Sunday, 4 October, i made a walk along the beach between Scheveningen and Hoek van Holland. The past days I got this video clip together made of clips filmed during the walk: The Beach.

The music is from Kraftwerk. These are not songs i knew that well. But i did have them in my iTunes. They are from the in 1977 released record Trans-Europe Express: Franz Schubert and Endless Endless. It does fit with the beach and the waves and the sea and the birds and the sky.

I do hope you will enjoy this clip.

Published on October 8, 2015 at 6:00 by

The Greatest Love of All

Whitney!

In the late 80s i had a love/hate thing with Whitney Houston. I did buy her first two albums. I did try to sing along with her songs. She was very beautiful. She had a great voice. She was something completely alien to me. I simply couldn’t imagine what her life was like, how she could be happy with what she was doing. I even made some works with her portrait photocopied. I had this link between Whitney, me and the painting the Girl with the Pearl earring from Johannes Vermeer. I made drawings of all three.

My Whitney obsession did fade away over time. I was shocked though when i saw the pictures of that time she was so skinny. I was also shocked when i heard she had died, in 2012.

On my MIX playlists i have one song, Saving all my love for you. A few months ago i listened to some more songs from her and this one stood out for me. My version is not so technically advanced of course. I still like it.

The original video clip

Published on October 7, 2015 at 6:00 by

A day of work

I still feel the walk i made yesterday. Nothing too bad no, just some small aches. It also does feel like my face has a burn. An itch. It does seem to me that tomorrow all will be fine.

I did do a bit of work on the clip The Beach. I picked the music! Kraftwerk. Yay! Franz Schubert and Endless Endless. They are listed as two songs, but they move into each other seamlessly.

I imported all the clips i made yesterday in iMovie. I gave them names like zand (sand) and branding (surf – really?) and vogels (birds). The clips for this clip are longer than the previous clips i made. I had this idea of using a longer transition between the clips before i started filming. I do like the clips i made. Happy with them.

I watched the clips, put roughly on the timeline, together with the music. I got tears in my eyes. It’s not done yet. Not at all. But the clips together with the music is full of magic to me.

To be honest with you, i do not understand why i haven’t started making video clips before. But i also do see that all the previous work i’ve done has let me to this. The walks i made this year. The drawings, photos and interactive work i made earlier. It all has fed me. It all has taught me small things and big things.

This time is a time of joy.

I will treasure it.

Published on October 6, 2015 at 6:00 by

A walk along the beach

Today, Sunday 4 October, i made the same walk as i did early April. I walked from Scheveningen to Hoek van Holland. The same route. I left this morning around ten, arrived at the beach around eleven thirty.

In Rotterdam, when i left, it still was very misty. I did start to see a bit more sun in the train on my way to The Hague. And when i arrived at the beach, it was a full blue sky. It did get a bit more cloudier during the afternoon. The weather overall was great though. Around 19ºC, a bit of wind. Lovely.

Halfway when i sat down to eat a banana, i took of my shoes. I walked the rest with my bare feet, mostly through the water. It wasn’t that cold. There were some people swimming! Not that many, but still.

The early parts of the walk i spend filming. I do plan to make a beach clip this week. Since the rest of the week the weather will be more windy, cloudy and rainy, i decided to go to the beach today. I usually sing a song on Sunday, but this week it will be later in the week.

And yes, i’m tired! With the rests i took along the way, i spend around five hours on the beach. I did love the water and my bare feet and some little talks with people along the way and the sun and the sound of the waves and the birds.

A good day!

Published on October 5, 2015 at 6:00 by

My house

My House, the new videoclip. I filmed the clips for it Tuesday and Wednesday. Making a choice for the music was a bit harder. It was not self evident from the start. But this song i finally picked from Prefuse 73, One Word Extinguisher, is a steady favourite. I did make a list of instrumental numbers on Monday. Some Kraftwerk, Brain Eno, Daft Punk, Beastie Boys, Senor Coconut in there. I did a search for instrumental numbers and picked some of those for the list. Just to get to know them a bit better. For future reference.

I did use transitions this time. Dissolves. I pushed around the clips to moments which are specific in the music. But i didn’t want it to get too complicated. It’s not a complicated clip. I should watch all three i made so far over the weekend and make comparisons.

I do love my cats, Mieke and Muis! I know they should lose a bit of weight. I do feel guilty they can not get outside. I sometimes wish that would change for them. But still, they do seem happy to me. They do fight a bit sometimes, but usually they sleep together and purr lots.

Enjoy the clip!

Published on October 2, 2015 at 6:00 by

Day

Today i worked on my new videoclip, My House. It’s filmed in my house. My cats, Mieke and Muis are playing in it. I filmed some more today. I played with the order of the clips, how long each clip lasts. I still need to decide if i’m gonna use some transitions. Not sure about that. Maybe only in a couple of places. Hopefully i’ll be done tomorrow.

I also had a hair mask with coconut oil. This morning i warmed up around three spoons of the oil and warmed it up. I put it up on my my hair, clipped it tight and spend the next two to three hours with my hair oily. After that i took a shower and washed my hair. It’s still slightly damp. It does feel good though! Worth the repeat.

I also read some more Harry Potter.The fifth book, with that ghastly teacher Umbridge. It’s fun to read. I admit, i’ve seen the movies more often that i’ve read the books. But, it does make reading the book more interesting. Seeing the differences and similarities. Fun to read.

The weather this week is glorious. Sunny, a slight wind, around 18ºC. Lovely!

And that is it for now. Enjoy your Thursday!

Published on October 1, 2015 at 6:00 by

Money

Money is any item or verifiable record that is generally accepted as payment for goods and services and repayment of debts in a particular country or socio-economic context, or is easily converted to such a form.

Money. This subject is too large to handle in a single post. So i will not try that. I did categorize this post in World. The second one besides my series of people of interest to me in the world. In rest at the moment.

I spend an hour this morning being livid. Angry. Grrrrrrrrrrr. Listening to music, daydreaming. Daydreaming of sitting on the edge of a stage talking to David Bowie. Yeah… this is mainly a way to get my thoughts clear. Sorry David. No offense!

I finally stood up, sat behind my computer and did a search for money. The first page i read is https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Money. I still have this page open in a tab. I did go through the Gold Bar page, Gold as an investment, Diamonds as an investment, Palladium as an investment and Alternative investment.

An alternative investment is an investment in asset classes other than stocks, bonds, and cash. The term is a relatively loose one and includes tangible assets such as precious metals, art, wine, antiques, coins, or stamps and some financial assets such as real estate, commodities, private equity, distressed securities, hedge funds, carbon credits, venture capital, film production and financial derivatives.

The past months i was thinking about the time when i will get rich. Gold seemed to me the first asset to invest in. Precious stones popped up next. Diamonds, rubies, emeralds, sapphires. Pearls. Opals. Real estate: houses or apartments in Rotterdam, London, New York. People: providing the means to enable people to work, to create.

That was always my dream. When i would win the big prize in the lottery, i would set up a house in the center of Rotterdam. On the top floor i would live. The two bottom floors would be for work. Computers mainly, but also meeting space. A coffee bar at the front perhaps? Not that it ever happened, but still.

Well.

Time has moved on. I’m actually quite poor right now. To be honest, i have a thousand euros for the month of October left. That is it. It does scare me at times. I still feel i’m consciously steering myself towards an end. With precision. I can not let go. I can not go any other way. It is scary to openly talk about it. I hardly see my friends. Right now i still buy things like expensive nail polish. I drink coffee and have carrot cake. I simply refuse to give in. I refuse to feel desperate. I feel my hands on the steering wheel and i know it is almost time.

I hope.

If not, if i’m wrong, i will lend a bit of money and go search for a job. Plan B.

I probably should worry more about my situation. I remember one time i read a definition of manic depression. The last couple of months the similarity with a manic period did cross my mind. The need for sleep is usually reduced. But i’m not excessively happy. I hardly talk about myself. Outwardly i’m calm, relaxed. I do smile more, i do feel happy. I do try and say hello to people i meet on the streets. But i’m careful. It feels that way!

My work, this website, is of the utmost importance to me. Yes. I do mean that. So far, i haven’t been able to see far ahead with the work i’ve made. I do realize the presents i made on lfs.nl are receding into the background. It is songs and videoclips now. Both are new. Both are still very young. Very tentative. I love the singing, but i really need to learn so much more. I also love the videoclips. I’m a bit more adept with them. A bit more at ease. A bit more familiar ground.

So yes, i’m working. Not for money, but for myself. To make the things i want to make. And that makes me so happy. So i wouldn’t give up this time for any money. I do feel i need to continue, need to work, need to make these clips, sing these songs. And that somehow, in a few weeks time, i’ll arrive at the other end. I’ll succeed. I feel the trust in me, in myself, that it will work out. I still have a bit of time.

So yeah. Money. I know you do need it, in this world. But right now, it is of no importance to me. It is all about my work.

Salute!

Published on September 30, 2015 at 6:00 by

Écorce Sanguine

Finally i got the best nail polish of this autumn in my possession. A bit weird though. I was called last Friday that the collection was finally in the store, and when i said i was after the warm red nail polish Écorce Sanguine, i was told that it wasn’t included yet. It would arrive this monday, today, after three o’clock. When i arrived today at the store, the Bijenkorf, it became clear that the Écorce Sanguine was the one polish that had arrived last friday. Confusing. But still, it was there, i bought it, it’s absolutely wonderful!

Ècorce Sanguine means Blood Bark. I just looked it up. It is a warm deep red with a golden shimmer. The shimmer shows in the sunlight only. On the nails it’s hardly visible. The nail polish covers the nails completely with only one coat.

Too bad my nails are so short. Last week i had them a few millimeters longer, but almost every single one split on me and i had to clip them a lot shorter. But i still love the way they look!

I love this color and the finish of this nail polish. A new favourite!

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The slight yellow tinge on my nails is from the fresh root kurkuma i put in my dinner just before i made these photos. I do apologize!

Published on September 29, 2015 at 6:00 by

Especially for you

Especially for you. Performed by Kylie Minogue and Jason Donovan. Written and produced by Stock Aitken Waterman. I love this song. Always have. From the start. I have the single!

The song was released in November 1988.

It is of course a song about love working out. The two lovers are back together. This seems to be the moment in which they talk about the past, how hard it was for them and how they both maintained their resolution to stick together. Finally, they somehow got back together and they rejoice in their love for each other.

If only life could be that simple. 🙂

Especially for you – Kylie & Jason
Especially for you
I wanna let you know what I was going through
All the time we were apart, I thought of you

You were in my heart
My love never changed
I still feel the same

Especially for you
I wanna tell you I was feeling that way too
And if dreams were wings
You know, I would have flown to you

To be where you are
No matter how far
And now that I’m next to you

No more dreaming about tomorrow
Forget the loneliness and the sorrow
I’ve gotta say, it’s all because of you

And now we’re back together, together
I wanna show you, my heart is oh so true
And all the love I have is especially for you

Especially for you
I wanna tell, you mean all the world to me
How I’m certain that our love was meant to be

You changed my life
You showed me the way
And now that I’m next to you

I’ve waited long enough to find you
I wanna put all the hurt behind you
And I wanna bring out all the love inside you

Oh, and now we’re back together, together
I wanna show you, my heart is oh so true
And all the love I have is especially for you

You were in my heart
My love never changed

No more dreaming about tomorrow
Forget the loneliness and the sorrow
I’ve gotta say, it’s all because of you

And now we’re back together, together
I wanna show you, my heart is oh so true
And all the love I have is especially for you

Together, together
I wanna show you, my heart is oh so true
And all the love I have is especially for you

Together, together
I wanna show you, my heart is oh so true
And all the love I have is especially for you

The original videoclip

A Top of the Pops version 🙂

Published on September 28, 2015 at 6:00 by

Rotterdam – The Kralingse Bos

Monday i walked in the Kralingse Bos. I filmed trees, the water, mushrooms and so many things more. The rest of the week i edited this videoclip.

I truly love it. The filming, the editing.

This together with the singing is what i like doing the most. There are so many steps forward to be made still. I see that. But right now i do feel so happy having found this work. I’m beginning to get a view on what i can do with this. I’m simply enjoying this feeling, not thinking about the practical issues at all. To have finally found something that will last.

Enjoy!

Published on September 25, 2015 at 6:00 by