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20 October 2019

I took my camera with me to the garden. I knew i had to give out jobs and i wanted to seed the echinacea and the red onions. But i thought i would have time to photograph. I imagined spider’s webs and little insects and hopefully a rat if i could wait for them long enough. But no.

There was only ZoĆ«, a first time visitor to the garden. She had heard of the garden from Nitai. So i showed her the entire garden. We removed all the bean bamboo sticks. We seeded the echinacea and potted the red onions. We drank coffee. Than Nitai came by. We drank some more coffee. We talked about all different sort of things. We harvested the hot peppers and the little courgettes and the red tomatoes. We waited for Brian with the horse manure, but he didn’t turn up before a quarter past five. So we left the garden.

The weather was nice. Almost dry. A little bit of sunshine. Not too cold. Hardly any wind. Nice, for 20 October. I have enough peppers in my house to make some hot sauce. Good for tomorrow!

So no photographs. A nice afternoon. Very nice!

Published on October 21, 2019 at 6:00 by

Happiness

Earlier this week i got an idea for today’s post: health. I was thinking about my personal history with my diabetes. How i first not thought about it that much. Simply took the medicine. I did drink a bit less, no longer a bottle of wine each day. I did loose some weight, around ten to fifteen kilos. This morning, thinking about this period nine years ago, i suddenly felt tears in my eyes.

I never thought about this time as being unhappy. I knew i wasn’t terribly happy, but no, not very unhappy. Now i realize i was exactly that. Unhappy. Terribly. Feeling so unhappy with my life. Nothing i imagined had come true. I worked and played warcraft. That was it.

At that time i didn’t think about this. I didn’t feel it. I didn’t cry. I just went on. And on.

Now, i am in a much more precarious position. But i am happy! Finally. I enjoy my life. I don’t even feel that much fear about the future. I am curious, excited even. I don’t know what will happen, but i want to find out. I trust myself. I am strong. Stronger than ever before.

So yes, today i feel a bit off. I feel heavy. But this is all old pain i am feeling. And it will pass.

Enjoy your weekend! Salute!

Published on October 18, 2019 at 6:00 by

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So Lonely

Roxanne

Next To You

Can’t Stand Losing You

Message In A Bottle

Walking On The Moon

Don’t Stand So Close To Me

De Do Do Do, De Da Da Da

Published on October 15, 2019 at 6:00 by

Planting and seeding

The little red onions are planted in this crate. We will set them out in spring 2020.
These onions i bought last Thursday at Vreeken. I will plant these in the Vredestuin Noord as well.
The lettuce i bought last Thursday. This one seems good for winter growth and harvest. Fingers crossed.
Two to three tiny little seeds in a pot
The lettuce we seeded a month ago
Today's harvest
A red nasturtium
Published on October 14, 2019 at 6:00 by