A non-animated version: hi there! I went through most of my gif animation presents, but i couldn’t find the animated one. It was in a psd folder in my lfs redesign July 2001 folder. Strange i couldn’t find it on lfs. Ooh well!
Today i went to the hairdresser Christiaan. I’ve been going there for years now. I always make an appointment with Lucienne. Today it was fun, we talked about many different things. Facebook, children, getting older, sex. Ordinary stuff. I have a fringe again!
Taking the metro to Graskruid this morning. I did want to go to Nesselande, closer to the Zevenhuizerplas, but i found out at the metro station that it wasn’t running. From Graskruid i walked to Hesseplaats, on a path along the metroline. From there i followed the bike path roadsigns to the Rottemeren.
I went through the Nessebos, which looked good. Very much like a park, but still good. Then along the beach at the Zevenhuizerplas. It wasn’t busy there, but there were still children playing in the water and older people sitting on the beach. I don’t think i saw even one older person playing in the water. Towards the end, where it was really quiet, i sat down for a bit and ate a sandwich i had taken with me.
Then the Slingekade. This was a curvy road through the Eendragtspolder, with man made waters. Some of them were crowded with birds, the right part was for when the water levels in the Rottemeren would become too high. A type of sluice would let water through once that happened and flood the entire right part, to prevent the waters from reaching houses. I had been thinking that these waters would be for sport rowers, but i didn’t see any in the beginning. At the end though i saw a building with platforms which were clearly for rowers. Walking along further i saw the main big row part appearing. I kept on walking around it, crossed a bridge and sat there for a while, eating my second sandwich.
I checked the map hanging there and saw there was a small ferry about. I followed a sign and got there, straight across from the restaurant i ate something when i did my first walk at the Rottemeren. I decided to go home the same way as then, with the bus and the metro. I was tired.
I left home at twelve, got back a quarter to five. I don’t walk that fast, i like to look around, make pictures and sometimes sit for a bit. But still. When i got home i was really tired, my feet hurt a bit. I switched on the tv and watched the final bit of the Tour de France stage of today, the first one through the Alps. Then i laid down on the couch for an hour or so. I do feel better now.
There you go! Not in any order, just starting at the beginning and seeing where i end up. I will focus on gif animations and flash presents. The gif animations i will actually show here too. The interactive flash animations i will show a screenshot of and link to.
1 September 1999
A dancing gif animation in a starry night.
22 March 2000
I did try to copy the code, but it didn’t go so well. So i show a screenshot here. Sorry guys and galls.
21 April 2000
If someone forced me to pick my ultimate favourite one, this could be it. For the people watching this site on a smartphone or tablet. Too bad! Screenshots for you.
My favourite number is 4!
9 August 2001
Nine different options in this flash file. They do change while you move the cursor inside the file.
12 March 2002
I don’t think i ever had these two points meet each other. And now, while i open the page and watch it, it does happen! There is a variation in the speed and andgle of reflection. And of course the starting point.
22 February 2005
OK OK i got ten.. well, there is one other one. So i’ll change the title of this post! The one music clip i made. It is for a demo of Bloc Party, The Answer. I made this in one evening. 😀
Making this post has made me very very happy. I sang along with whats her name.. Idina Menzel’s Let it go. That went well! I danced a little. I also cried. Pfff. Well, listening to Bloc Party’s The Answer made me smile smile smile. Gotta wind down a bit. I’ll drink the one cidre i have and then go to bed. Or.. just check whats on tv. Maybe a nice movie. I’ll see!
At the moment i’m going through my old work. Some of it in a cupboard downstairs. Some of it still in the attic. In a ring binder in the cupboard i found some more contactsheets. I decided to photograph these too and make a separate post of the. I do like these.
I also photographed two pictures i found, because well.. i like em.
Another thing i observed when i scrolled back over the last 15 posts, is that i seem to keep images more before the break. I won’t be doing that with the walks pictures. This page will get so large to download. I do think though that the really important photos i do like to keep before the break. If there is a break even.
Ooh well.. just some minor thinking there. On with the show!
Ooh, the top image. It’s one of the single images i photographed. I love this one.
Also something else. I don’t think i talked about it specifically. I just want to emphasize here that i made these photos myself. All alone with the camera, smiling into nothingness. It does remind me of my first memory, where my mother points to my father behind me, who takes a photograph of me then. I was like a year, a year and a half. The fact that i do not see my father, but i see the camera he is holding on front of his face. I don’t know if the memory is related to my obsessive self portraits later on. But it is something i think about.
I do like this one. I also have quite small boobies here. I don't think i ever did anything with any of them.
I like these too. I may have used some of these for minor works. It's quite an early sheet too. Like most of these sheets anyway.
The last photo on the fifth row i used. Some other i used too. I really like this one. Some great shots.
I seem to like most of these sheets. I do look quite angry on some of these.
The last photo on this one i used. Like the other photos too.
A last image of this post. Just because i think she’s cute. 🙂
Walking straight through the centre of Rotterdam this time. Partly over the Meent, then i crossed over to the Hoogstraat, went down the Koopgoot, than partly over the Lijnbaan to the Binnenwegplein, the Oude Binnenweg, the Nieuwe Binnenweg, then over the Schie, past the old Delfshaven over the Schiedamseweg to Marconiplein, where i took the tube back home.
The Nieuwe Binnenweg i felt was changed a lot. Gentrified. Quite a lot of male barbershops, second hand clothing stores, eating houses. The Schiedamseweg was still the same old long road with many different stores, from bellhouses to a Croatian shop. Still nice!
I do try to greet people, not be withdrawn, but look around, look at the people, smile. It is hard sometimes, especially in a large town like Rotterdam. People put on this protective form of walking by yourself and getting to where you want to go. I’ve done that too. Sometimes i still do that. But i keep on trying to see if there are any people simply willing to smile. To be honest, it’s mostly older people who are open for any sort of contact.
I also made a short video on the Eendrachtsplein, between the Old and the New Binnenweg. Enjoy!
Donald Fagen and Walter Becker
The founders of Steely Dan, one of my all time favorite bands. The band split up in 1981. Fagen and Becker reunited in 1993 and have since toured and released albums as Steely Dan.
I’ve most likely known Steely Dan since their beginnings. I remember an assignment at highschool, to draw a redesign of an album you liked. I picked Countdown to Ecstacy from Steely Dan. So i must have been like eleven or twelve when i bought their albums. The first one, Can’t buy a thrill, was released in 1972, when i was eight years old. As my eldest sister Marja was the biggest influence on my music taste in those years, i knew about them from when she got the album. I do have all their albums up until Aja. Then i got into ska and new wave. A different story. 🙂
Kelly Clarkson, “My Life Would Suck Without You,” 2009
Britney Spears, “3,” 2009
Katy Perry feat. Snoop Dogg, “California Gurls,” 2010
Katy Perry, “Teenage Dream,” 2010
P!nk, “Raise Your Glass,”2010
Britney Spears, “Hold It Against Me,” 2011
Katy Perry featuring Kanye West, “E.T.,” 2011
Katy Perry, “Last Friday Night (T.G.I.F.),” 2011
Katy Perry, “Part of Me,” 2012
Maroon 5, “One More Night,” 2012
Taylor Swift, “We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together,” 2012
Katy Perry, “Roar,” 2013
Katy Perry feat. Juicy J, “Dark Horse,” 2014
Taylor Swift, “Shake It Off,” 2014
Taylor Swift, “Blank Space,” 2014
Taylor Swift, “Bad Blood,” 2015
He started out in Sweden, with Ace of Base among others. Then he started co-producing and co-writing for the Backstreet Boys 1999 Milennium album. The following people read like a list of of all the hits all over the world. I don’t know much about this world, but it seems to me Martin is among the ones most revered in the industry. “We work melody first. That’s Max Martin’s school,” Kotecha says. “We’ll spend days, sometimes weeks, challenging the melody. The goal is to make it sound like anyone can do this, but it’s actually very difficult. In Sweden, you don’t do anything until you do it right.” Savan Kotecha, the American who co-wrote both of One Direction’s big hits, spent six months in Stockholm developing songs for their new album with Martin disciples Rami Yacoub and Carl Falk.
Mark Zuckerberg Criticism Facebook
Yeah. Hmm. I write these updates by making the post and adding the names while i think of them. The previous three names i had rather quickly. And then i thought of Facebook. And its founder. Or rather, one of the five co-founders.
I do not that much about him. And for the first years i happily ignored facebook. Once i had to make a facebook page for a company for work. Not the kind of work i like to repeat.
He restated these goals to Wired magazine in 2010: “The thing I really care about is the mission, making the world open.”
There are a couple of things i don’t like about facebook. It is overly prudish. The order of posts i don’t get. But yes, there are so many users on it, it is hard to avoid it. So i do post updates from this blog there. I do feel though for most users that facebook is the one place they go to. Browsing (‘surfing’) seems to be diminishing. I’m a internet reader and watcher since 1995. I’ve seen many ways of browsing and remembering the nice places. I guess i’ll stay happy with the few around me who are doing the same. Still, i don’t mind publishing on facebook occasionally. And with my F.B. Purity, which hides the ads and more, my life is even better 🙂
This is work i made starting May 1999 until March 2005. It is made in Flash, but luckily there is also an export GIF animation option, which i used today to export all the movies again. One, Sad Little Square, i couldn’t export as a gif. There is a click button in it, which was impossible to remove.
So. I do feel a huge sigh of relieve now. Truly. This is one of my best works. I watched them all again today, and yes, i laughed. I saw the technique evolving, but not taking over. I saw this little square leading its life, going through heaven and hell. (Yeah yeah, the little square is sort of me. **duh**) It’s place on the front page of lfs.nl was obvious to me from the start.
A series of short visual stories about a little square who explores the world, is happy, sometimes sad, often tired, fights and has sex.*
Not based on any real life events.
So, i’m happy to publish the square series once more, as gif animations. It is of lower quality than the flash swf files, but the animation is basically the same.
I started out simple, with Happy single square. I had only worked with Flash for a couple of weeks. The day after i made Tired single square, because yes, i was tired after the busy day before. Making something new, something i felt worked, something exciting, it does make me feel tired. I suppose it does that to everybody being creative.
The following stories were of me visiting hell, fighting demons, traveling through the world, getting help from an angel, dancing, feeling sorry for itself, dreaming, remembering, having sex, making an end and continuing anyway.
And then a five year break. The last three are from 2005. They are wider, there is more happening outside of the square. I curse too.
I’m not sure which ones are my favourite. I do like Memories. Good morning world i like too. But really, i do like them all. From the simple first ones to the more complicated last ones. And as a series, yes, i do think they are among the best things i ever made.
So there. I made the animations repeatable. Else you would need to reload the page each time. But really, if you do wanna see these animations in their original format, go to lfs.nl and follow the links from the front page. I do think i’ll be posting these animations on facebook and twitter over the next days. That is how much i like ’em.
Getting past art school in my personal history. After i did my exams for art school, in 1991, i started talking with a friend about organizing an exhibit. It took us over a year to get the exhibit ready together with a special evening with performances.
The evening was sold out. Yep, sex sells.
The following people performed:
Nico Okkerse presented the whole evening
Van Reck Ten Bosch Puppet Play performed fragments of Epoche
Marlies Dekkers fashion show
Anne Vegter read some of her own stories
Henk Oosterling gave a philosophical interpretation of the evening
Piet Hein and Jacquelline van der Geer were the pamperers of the evening
Cora de Ridder performed a tantra ritual with rhytmic accompaniment by Gerard Kuster
Rita Knuistingh Neven played Gaspard de la Nuit from Ravel
Meindert Velthuis sung jazz songs with Chris Smalt on piano
An exhibitionist showed himself
A lovemaking couple
The exhibit had the following participators
Anton Beeke – posters
Gon Buurman – photos
Rob Cox – graphics
Marlies Dekkers – fashion
Christer Hennix – mixed media
Milou Hermes – drawings
Tony Hewitt – photos
Annemarie Roos – photos, 3D
Erik van der Schalie – photos
Lena Tuzzolino – photos
Bertus Weeda – paintings
and more: pornographic images of the past 25oo years, material of the medical faculty Rotterdam, dildo’s and other things from My Sin, Massad Shop, postorder company Mail & Female and the AIDS fund, 17th, 18th and 19th erotic poetry, pornographic stories from Anne Vegter, computer games, comics and more!
Afterwards i was exhausted. Empty. There were quite some difficulties. I’m pretty sure i’m not always the best person to work along with for something like this.
This exhibit is part of my past, and with all its failings, i’m still a bit proud of it. I knew i had these photos, but they were in a box in a cupboard. I hadn’t looked at them for years. Watching them now, i actually do like ’em.
That is actually me sitting behind. Smoking! Happy i don't do that anymore 🙂
The program for the evening performance, 24 October 1992
The invitation, a small paper called Het Privaat. This is a difficult word to translate. The best word most likely is The privy
Last week i showed all the contact sheets i could find. This post i will post some works i made with these photos. It is about choices i made then. I don’t know if i would make the same choices today, most likely not. But i can not go back and change what i did then. So it stands.
I don’t have my work set out chronological. I do know i miss some pictures. Some works i really disliked. Other works puzzled me. And others i enjoyed. As with most work really.
The work shown at the top of this post is my final examination work. I’m not sure what to think of it to be honest. This work falls in the puzzle-section.
As for why i made this photos. Well, it did start out as assignments i got at school. But i did continue. Partly because they worked for me. I could see something in there i could use. I also did see i was kind of pretty, but really, i don’t think i was after that.
This is one of my fave photos. I was 24 years old. There is such a sincere look on my face, and a calmness and quietness. I didn't do anything with this photo while i was in art school, but i did publish it on lfs.nl, in Au secours!.
The Truest Artist Is The Most Feigning. This is what i wrote when i published this picture on lfs.nl July 10 1997. It is a transcript of a line from Shakespeare, from As you like it, Act 3, Scene 3 line 15. I did publish this picture before, in a minor exhibit while i was still in art school. I don't think it had a title then. The text from lfs.nl is about the pose, the exhibition of myself. The careful smile, the hand lightly touching my face, the hair brushed away, the lips brushed with red lipstick. The look of knowing on my face is a question at the same time. It feels like an invitation.
This photo is part of my final examination work. I love this one. The slight smile, the finger against my face. It is one i made at home, with one flash light on the camera. A Canon AE-1. I still do have this camera. Not sure i will ever use it again though. Maybe.
Also part of my examination work. This picture was also shown on lfs.nl. The title there is flexibility - complexity - duplicity. Not sure i would use this picture now. A bit too sweet.
This photo i used halfway, i'm thinking the third year. It is a very different photo from most others. Strong, in your face. I'm much more hesitant than this photo. Very rarely do i get out and know what i want and get it too. Almost never.
I think i would have picked this picture now, in stead of the first picture in Feel me. And yes, i do see i'm actually rather pretty. I was still young. Those eyes. Wow. When i look in the mirror, my eyes are much more blue grey, not this bright blue. It must be the light.
An old photo. I don't think i have it in the contact sheets. I should look for it. I did use this photo for an early work. Still liking it.
So, my final work on art school. As i said with the second photo above this one, i would have picked that one now. I do like the second and third photo though. The text. I remember someone from my class, Nanouk Leopold, saying to me at an earlier exhibit that she wanted me to be more fierce, more outspoken. I listened! The text on these photos came there because i worked with two masks, in the completely dark room for colour photography. I enjoyed working like that. Of course now its completely different, with photoshop and computers and printers. I do enjoy that i worked like this. I wouldn't do it again though. So expensive!
I used these photos on lfs. Actually, when lfs was still home.luna.nl/~ellen/preview.html. Which to my complete surprise, is still online! I do know a bit about the company Luna, which still exists. I closed my account in 1999, 16 years ago. But, anyways.. i used the photos mostly in the Retrospective part. My first steps online. Yay!