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Things to do

I do have a job these weeks. It is not taking all of my time, but sometimes a bit more than i wish. Still, i need the money, and the job is quite good.

Tomorrow i will go to the garden though. Earlier this week there was a message on our whatsapp group that a Dutch television show will come and film us in the garden. But it is next week. Good, i think. A bit of time to talk about it beforehand. I’m looking forward to it.

I’m tired now. I will watch some tv for the rest of the evneing. Keuringsdienst van Waarde (NPO3), The Great Pottery Throwdown (BBC2) and Legion (Fox). All neatly after each other.

The weather is getting a bit better. Earlier this week it was raining. The whole day through. Today it was a bit dryer, at the end the sun peeked through! This weekend it will be around 13ªC, a bit of sunshine.

Ooh spring! Please come soon!

Have a good weekend. Enjoy your days. Find some rest and quiet.

*hug*

Published on March 10, 2017 at 6:00 by

Touched By An Angel

We, unaccustomed to courage
exiles from delight
live coiled in shells of loneliness
until love leaves its high holy temple
and comes into our sight
to liberate us into life.

Love arrives
and in its train come ecstasies
old memories of pleasure
ancient histories of pain.
Yet if we are bold,
love strikes away the chains of fear
from our souls.

We are weaned from our timidity
In the flush of love’s light
we dare be brave
And suddenly we see
that love costs all we are
and will ever be.
Yet it is only love
which sets us free.

A poem written by Maya Angelou

Published on March 8, 2017 at 6:00 by

Dutch elections

Next week, Wednesday 15 March, the Dutch elections will be held. In this election all 150 members of the House of Representatives, the Tweede Kamer, are chosen.

No single party has ever managed to win a majority of the votes, good for 76 seats in the house. The Dutch government has been a coalition of several parties for more than a century.

I grew up in a left wing labour family. We had a Vara tv magazine, we listened to the Saturday radio show In de Rooie Haan. We watched the VPRO on Sundays and had the newspaper Het Vrije Volk, the Free People – which no longer exists. The first party i ever voted for was the Communistic Party. I was eighteen years old.

I never was terribly interested in politics. For convenience, i settled for the Dutch Labour party, the PvdA. I did vote most of the time. I might have skipped a few. I don’t remember.

The past two years i have changed, my life has changed. My thoughts about many things, like politics, have sharpened. These last weeks before the elections the debates and discussions on television are on almost every night. I don’t watch them all. The one thing that stuck was a question somebody in the audience asked Pechtold (D66) about his death wish. He was only in his late 50s.

We are all born free in this world with our own responsibility for our lives. The government has nothing to do with how somebody would like to end his or her own life. I’m really baffled by the question, as if the man was waiting for approval for his going away. The answer uses the word dignity. Death is simply the end of your life. I’d love it to be dignified for everybody, but i do see that it is not the case. To me, this drives the responsibility of our government too far. You can simply slit your wrists and be done with it. Not that i wish anyone to do this. But if you want to go, simply go.

I’m also thinking about the importance of money and economics. The way the future is projected. Plans of the parties are calculated through with an horizon of 60 years. So many things can happen in that time. It is impossible to know everything, or rather anything about these events. But it still goes through. Most parties parade the apparently good results.

Once i have a little money myself, i will donate some to the Peace garden. I will try to find people who are working on school gardens. I think every school, for children aged between 4 and 12 years old, should have a school garden system. With gardeners working with the children.

These are my personal dreams. If ever i get the money of course!

As for our country, my vote goes to the Partij van de Dieren. I like their thinking about economics. We do need to find a way to change the buying habits of so many people, buying all this nonsense junk in the shops. We do need to take care of our planet. It is a magical place with so many animals and plants sharing this world with us. We need to take care of all of it. Not kill and pollute.

Plan B (English)Plan B (Dutch).

I am still thinking about who i am going to vote for. Marianne Thieme is the main front person of the Partij van de Dieren. But i am also following Ewald Engelen on Facebook and Twitter, he is on number ten of the list. So my vote might go to him. Still thinking!

I am following my own dreams, my own thoughts, my own ideals. I’m happy i found a good party to place my votes with.

I do hope you will find a good place too.

Published on March 7, 2017 at 6:00 by

Rain

Rain.

This morning, Sunday morning, it looked really nice. A bit of blue sky, sunshine. But when i was ready to walk out to the door on my way to the garden, rain, rain, rain. And it didn’t stop. The whole afternoon, rain.

I didn’t mind too much. I had my raining bike cape with me, which kept the top part of me dry enough. I spend half the afternoon walking around the garden and the grass and mud outside it to clear it of the plastic bottles, packages, cigarette buts, metal drinking containers and laughing gas capsules lying around.

Grumble.

After that i seeded two big containers and three smaller ones with catmint. Cats love this plant. I also read that rats and mice don’t like this, which is a good thing for us. Last year the rats ate our corn, most of the tomatoes, parsnips and beetroot. So we are looking for a friendly way to keep them from our grounds. I will plant the seedlings around the garden and the greenhouse. Maybe a few will be planted in between the tomatoes. Let’s see how this works out.

I am tired now. Tonight i will watch another movie. Last night i watched Manchester by the Sea (2016). It was an okay movie to watch. I did enjoy the acting of Casey Affleck and Michelle Williams. And some smaller parts were very well performed as well. Not my favourite sort of movie, i admit.

Tonight, hmm… Blade Runner? Star Wars – Return of the Jedi? Inside Out? Ooh.. Westworld the movie from 1973? That does sound tempting.

First i’m make myself something to eat. I’m hungry!

Bye bye 🙂

PS. I watched Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children. Loved it!

Published on March 6, 2017 at 6:00 by

A good day

I got out of bed at 9:30. I had opened the door beforehand, and Mieke was lying and meowing and giving heads and stretching her paw at me several times, before she jumped of the bed. When i got out i did my usual things. Turning on the gas stove. I gave Muis some catty food, gave him an diabetes injection, took my own diabetes pills.

And then i sat on my meditation pillow for a short bit. Around five minutes i guess. Simply sitting, breathing. Listening to the sound of the stove, looking outside at the bare trees, the flat across the water. Sometimes having my eyes closed.

I got up and started to prepare my breakfast. Two eggs and hüttekase make a good omelet. Half an avocado, with some salt and pepper and some balsamic. Good.

I always leave a bit of omelet to give to Muis. He sits at my feet, usually quiet, like today. I slice his bits into little pieces. And give it to him. In ten seconds it’s all gone.

Time for some work. Well, ok, first i check out facebook, twitter, my email, all spam. And then some work.

OK i cheated a bit. Played an hour of Warcraft. After i worked for an hour. Now i got to dress up. I’m still wearing my onesie. Then i go to the garden to empty my compost bucket. After that i go to the market for some more vegetables and eggs. And then some more work! Yay!

It is cold! Brrrr. Happy i had my pink shawl on. A quick jump into the market. Gonna make another soup this afternoon. I already had some veggies at home, but i bought some broccoli and beetroots to go with it. And i treated myself to some doner. Only meat this time.

In the Albert Heijn i pinched some carrot cake frosting bit which was lying in the shop. I got some bread and cat food. That is it for now.

Gonna work a bit more, then i will watch Escape to the Country. And after that i will make my soup. Yum!

It is a quarter to eight right now. I’m gonna watch a movie. Star Wars. The first one! Will most likely watch the other ones the next days. Yesterday i watched Terminator. Been ages since i last saw it. Very 80s special effects. To be honest, the second Terminator movie, the one from 1991, i have seen more times. Enjoyed it. But this is also for the sci fi blockbuster post i’m gonna write, most likely next week.

Star Wars seen. Strange to look back and recall the memory of me seeing it in 1977 together with my nephew. We had a Big Mac in the MacDonalds beforehand. It had just opened on the Coolsingel. We had a seat in the cinema way up above.

Anyway, a day a lot more quiet than yesterday. Tomorrow i’ll be going to my mother, not sure what i’ll be posting then. For now, i’m getting ready to go to bed. Hopefully i’ll sleep all night through. Hopefully.

Goodnight!

Published on March 1, 2017 at 6:00 by

Full of ideas

My head is full of ideas.

  • a video clip, dancing, taking shot from head height, waist height, close by, a bit further of, music maybe En Vogue?
  • a story about science fiction blockbusters, with screen shots from Star Wars, Hunger Games, Inception, Matrix, Terminator and more movies – about stories, about what we show to our people, what we show them to divert them, about our own world which is that much worse than anything we can think of, but also more beautiful and complicated

Today i watched the first video clips i made.

I see their amateuristic look and feel. I see the camera’s involuntary movement. I can see they are my first clips, very clearly.

But i also see the joy. I also see myself walking around in the city, on the beach and in the park and loving it and looking around and filming it. I wouldn’t have missed it for the world.

I think about yesterday. My birthday. The cake. I think about today. And my head is full. I dance. It springs up in my mind.

And i know i need to quiet down a bit. But still. I love this time. All by myself. I love love love it.

I watched a bit of the Oscars. All those famous people sitting there and clapping and laughing and singing. All the beautiful people. All the talented people. So far away.

I can not believe this is happening to me right now. I can not believe i feel all these things.

Crazy!

Completely, totally crazy!

Published on February 28, 2017 at 6:00 by

My birthday’s vegan carrot cake

My birthday. I didn’t really celebrate it that much. But i did bake a cake! Since it is a Sunday, i was going to the garden anyway. I had invited a friend a couple of weeks ago. When she said she could come last Friday or this Sunday, i said that coming on my birthday sounded like a really good idea. I gave her a grand tour of the garden and we talked about all sorts of things while we walked about.

I do think everybody enjoyed the cake. The frosting was a bit sweet, the way i like it. A bit too sweet for some, but it did seem to go down pretty good.

For tonight i still have some Riesling and a bit of chocolate for with the tea. I treated myself. Yay! Tomorrow back to the low carb food.

All the ingredients
The spring form is greased up with some coconut oil
The dry ingredients in a big bowl. In the small bowl grated carrot...
...and then two mashed bananas
The sunflower oil and a bit of haselnut milk make the batter for the cake.
The finished cake. A sweet frosting with a almondy taste. The cake itself is a bit dense, but the taste is lovely. The raisins, bananas, carrots and walnuts are great.

Recipe
Ingredients

  • 250 gr all purpose flour
  • 1/2 tsp baking soda
  • 1/4 teaspoon cinnamon
  • 1/4 teaspoon nutmeg
  • pinch of salt
  • 2 mashed bananas
  • 125 gr granulated sugar
  • 125 ml sunflower oil
  • 1 tbsp flaxseeds mixed with 3 tbsp of water and set to gel
  • 250 gr grated raw carrot
  • some chopped walnuts

Instructions

  1. Preheat the oven to 350°F / 180°C
  2. Sift the dry ingredients
  3. Add the wet ingredients to a large bowl and mix. Add the dry ingredients and then fold in the carrots and optional nuts
  4. Turn into a medium sized well greased loaf pan
  5. Bake for 45 minutes or until done (can be up to an hour). Cool on a rack

I forgot the frosting! That took me some searches to find a good vegan frosting recipe. I have to admit, i did miss the butter and the cream cheese. Really. I don’t think i will make this type of frosting again. Still, the nutty flavour is really nice.

Ingredients

  • white almond paste
  • 1 avocado
  • powder sugar
  • a bit of agave syrop
  • a bit of haselnut milk
  • some creamed up coconut oil

Instructions

  1. mix everything together!
Published on February 27, 2017 at 6:00 by