What is coming next?

I’m still not sure what my next move will be. Well, apart from the drawing of course. It does take time. I need to have a clear head on what i want to draw. Stop halfway an idea and jump to the next one. I love it.

This Sunday i had a talk with an old garden friend. He had met a love interest through tinder. He wasn’t a big fan, but said that through corona and the lack of places to meet new people, he had caved in and actually met someone he really liked. He did have me thinking for a short time.

But i am not that actively looking for a love interest. It is on my mind, sure. But it’s alost like it guides me through this world. These feelings i feel deep inside. This longing i have. I do want to get out of it. Step outside it. Become clear headed. Get my life in order. Face the world and talk and smile and laugh and work. And then maybe meet someone who i like, feel attracted to, can talk with about anything really and cuddle with and prepare food for. Just normal things. But also not ordinary. Special.

That is my dream.
Something of me.
Something of the world outside.
Something with somebody else.

Published on July 21, 2021 at 6:00 by

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  • Integra Honesta says:

    AN ANALYSIS… (Corrected version!)

    I’m still not sure what my next move will be.

    WELL, HAVING A NUMBER OF MOVES PLANNED OUT AHEAD WOULD BE A NICE BASELINE.

    Well, apart from the drawing of course. It does take time. I need to have a clear head on what i want to draw.

    APPARENTLY NOT HAVING A CLEAR HEAD, QUITE THE PREDICAMENT, YOU BETTER FIX THAT. PROFESSIONAL HELP, MAYBE? OR RELENTLESS, STRENUOUS EXERCISE, BRINGING GREAT PHYSICAL AND MENTAL HEALTH BENEFITS? AND WHAT ABOUT DOING REAL WORK? *REAL* *WORK* INSTEAD OF ARTSY FARTSY IMPRODUCTIVE DRAWINGS.

    Stop halfway an idea and jump to the next one. I love it.

    FOCUS, SINGLE TASKING AND TASK COMPLETION ARE THE BUILDING BLOCKS OF THE MANUFACTURE OF GOOD RESULTS, THOUGH.

    This Sunday i had a talk with an old garden friend. He had met a love interest through tinder. He wasn’t a big fan, but said that through corona and the lack of places to meet new people, he had caved in and actually met someone he really liked.

    OUCH! TINDER. RUMMAGE THROUGH THE ULTIMATE TRASH HEAP – APART FROM COLLECTIONS OF HOMELESS CRACK HEADS SQUATTING IN DERELICT RUINS – TO FIND A SOLID CONNECTION WITH SOMEONE ELSE WHO IS RIGHT AT HOME IN THAT DARK CRUST AT THE BOTTOM OF THE DUMPSTER, SOUNDS LIKE A PLAN. NO NEED TO LET ME KNOW HOW THAT WORKS OUT FOR YOU. OR DO. RIGHT HERE. FOR MY EDUCATION AND ENTERTAINMENT.

    He did have me thinking for a short time.

    THINKING. FOR A SHORT TIME. HOW ABOUT HAVING PROPER, EFFECTIVE, POSITIVE, CONSTRUCTIVE THOUGHTS TOWARDS ACTUAL SUCCESS AND RESULTS? EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE. OR BETTER YET, ALL THE TIME?

    But i am not that actively looking for a love interest. It is on my mind, sure. But it’s alost like it guides me through this world. These feelings i feel deep inside. This longing i have. I do want to get out of it.

    WANTING AND RESULTS ARE MUTUALLY EXCLUSIVE

    Step outside it. Become clear headed.

    SIGNIFYING UNCLARITY OF HEAD

    Get my life in order.

    SIGNIFYING…

    Face the world and talk and smile and laugh and work.

    WORK. AND ITS RESULTS. THERE YOU HAVE IT. WORK IS ONE OF THE MAIN INGREDIENTS OF ACCOMPLISHMENTS AND THE RESULTING CONTENTMENT AND HAPPINESS. HOW ABOUT WORKING THE MEAGRE BASELINE OF 40 HOURS PER WEEK, AT LEAST FOR 40 YEARS, PRODUCING REAL AND NECESSARY GOODS AND SERVICES? CONTRIBUTING VALUE TO PEOPLE. HOW ABOUT THAT? LET ME KNOW AFTER YOU HAVE PUT IN YOUR 40 HOURS X 40 YEARS, BUT NOT BEFORE THAT…

    And then maybe meet someone who i like, feel attracted to, can talk with about anything really and cuddle with and prepare food for. Just normal things.

    WELL, THE RESULTS SPEAK FOR THEMSELVES. YOU DO NOT LIVES IN AN EMPTY CORNER OF THE HIMALAYAS, BUT AMONG MILLIONS OF PEOPLE. YOU MEET PLENTY OF PEOPLE. APPARENTLY ALL OF THEM HAVE DENIED YOU ACCESS TO THEIR LIVES.

    But also not ordinary. Special.

    That is my dream.

    DREAMS ARE THERE WHILE ASLEEP. LIFE IS THERE WHILE AWAKE.

    Something of me.

    I HAVE SEEN YOUR PHOTOS. IT ACTUALLY TOO MUCH OF YOU. GETTING IN SHAPE INSTEAD OF FAT WOULD PUT YOU AHEAD OF THE FIFTY PERCENT OVERWEIGHT COMPETITION WHO ARE ALSO TRYING TO LATCH ONTO MEN. WHATEVER EXCUSE COMES UP IN YOUR ANGRY HEAD RIGHT NOW IS *NOT VALID*. SIMPLY BECAUSE – RESULTS IN THE MIRROR AND ON THE WEIGHING SCALE. AND THEN WE HAVE NOT EVEN BEGUN TO INVENTORY THE ELEMENTS OF VALUE YOU MUST BRING TO THE TABLE TO BE WORTHY OF THE TIME, ENERGY, ATTENTION, RESOURCES OF A MAN. CURRENT RESULTS FOLLOW FROM CURRENT STRATEGY. NEW RESULTS? NEW STRATEGY!

    Something of the world outside.
    Something with somebody else.

    HOW WILL YOU STUDY, LEARN AND INNOVATE IN YOU STATE OF BEING, ATTITUDE, ACTIONS AND THE FORTHCOMING RESULTS EVERY DAY, STARTING TODAY?

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