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Two weeks of vacation. Looking forward to that.

First i have got to finish the clip i’m working on for the past few months. I have wild dreams. Wild fantasies. Of course. About becoming famous. Sure.

I don’t know what i really want. But i do know this. I need to stay close to myself. Really close. Not fake anything. Make something i love. Something that touches me. Not think of the future. Not think of a way out. Stay here.

Only a few more days.

And then it is cake preparation time. Buying all the ingredients. This weekend i made strawberry jam. For a cake. For the wedding. Today i picked the first courgettes. Or zuchini’s for you US people. And then bake all the cakes. Brrrr. Getting nervous now, but i’ll be fine.

I don’t know what the future will bring. No idea. Yes, i have wishes, dreams, fantasies. Of course.

Of course.

I’m working on the movie i want to publish 15 June. Slowly going through all the clips i made over the past months. Making decisions. This one is out. Only this part is good. That one is in. That one goes before. That one goes behind.

It feels good. I’m happy with the material i have gathered.

My main work for now. Really happy.

Salute!

This morning i opened the Tuin op Hofbogen. Walking back i came across Nitaj and chatted a bit. Walking further on i came across Con. We walked by the several plants he has growing besides the appartment block he lives in. We across this plant. He didn’t know what plant it is. I made a photo of it. So here it is. If you know what plant this is, please tell me. I did do a search, but didn’t come much farther than a mustard type plant.

Later i sat outside the Coffee Company, drinking a small latte and a small custard pie. Reading the newspaper. Listening to the talk of the two girls sitting besides me with half an ear. A bit of shopping.

I feel good today.

That’s it!

I didn’t sleep well last night. Probably my menopausal thing. Oh well. I got out of bed half past ten. I baked two pancakes from the batter i made last Friday. With some bacon. Or whatever you call it. It was nice.

Today i had to fill in my taxes. One for everything i earned in 2017. Not that much. One for my VAT for the first quarter of 2018. Which i did first. With the camera, iPad and iMac i bought. So yes, hopefully i get it all back. After the VAT i went out and got some bread, peanut butter,chocolate, cats food and toilet paper. I bought a bread with a kroket and ae it in the Markthal and watched the people walking about and chatting and leading their lives. It brought tears to my eyes.

Well.

When i got back home i made some chocolate milk. I decided i would do a normal tax form. I’m not a company. I hardly earned anything last year anyway. So i did it the easy way. And yes, since i only made around 2000 euros last year, nothing i need to pay.

It is chilly today. Wet. But towards the end of the week it’ll warm up. Yeah.

*smile*

Not sure where this is coming from. Wiped out. Extremely tired. Slept almost the entire day. So i’m leaving this day. Back tomorrow!

A day of nothing much. I went out for a walk. I got myself an icecream, a hamburger, a vietnamese spring roll. I sat and watched. Talked with a few people. I read a sentence on a shop window which didn’t make any sense to me. I talked to the person inside the shop and hey, i was right! It was wrong. There are no tree letters.

I also popped in the Albert Heijn, got me raisins and two bottles of Westmalle Tripel.

It was sunny today. Not too warm, i think around 18ºC. Warmer in the sunshine.

A lovely day.

When i woke up, set up my oatmeal porridge to cook for around twenty minutes, i watched the first episode of Onbehagen: de nieuwe wanorde, Discomfort, the new disorder. Bas Heijne looks into this feeling of discomfort and division.

After opening the Tuin op Hofbogen i went to the Vredestuin, the Peace Garden, to empty my bag with sawdust and cat’s pee. A man and his young child were sitting there. He said a friend of his worked in the old Shell building. When he visited him on Monday, he saw the garden for the first time out of the window. So today he went to see it up closer. his little girl gave me a seed of a avocado. Do you know what that is? He asked. The seed of a avocado i replied. You’re right he said.

Rombout came by. He came to the garden to get a soil driller, een grondboor. I assume that is the English name for it. It is not in my Dutch – English dictionary.

Back home i played a little World of Warcraft. I’m level 109 now, soon to be 110. I do enjoy playing the game. Very much on my own, but that is ok.

I saw on Facebook that Bram Ladage was selling potato chips for fifty cents between 13.00 and 16.00 hours today. I couldn’t resist it, shortly after 13.00 i went out and walked to the Markthal. They had made a waiting row before the Bram. I got a chips with fritessauce and peanutsauce. War.

On my way back i went into the second hand bookseller De Slegte. Philosophy, gardening, cooking, history, fantasy, science fiction. Just before the entrance i saw a couple of books written by the Dalai Lama. I bought the one called Meer Liefde, More Love. Not sure why. But i do feel love is extremely important. Anytime anywhere. I already read a few pages. I like the style of the book. A good one to read for me right now.

After that i walked home. On the Binnenrotte two young people approached me, asking if i would like to sing a few songs for the radio. FunX. I sang two songs: Lauw from Boef and another one. I forgot the name. It’ll be broadcasted next week. Not sure i will remember to listen. I enjoyed it though!

Added Thursday morning: after closing the garden yesterday evening, I walked past the Vredestuin. I saw Hilde working there, rooting out the grass in the grassfield surrounding the Vredestuin. I sat on the edge of the round square and we chatted a bit. She called herself weird, raar, for working in the garden this late and all by herself. I said it was remarkable. We all are remarkable.

No i won’t share any. I’m simply thinking. About the hails falling early this afternoon. Sitting in the sunshine drinking tea in a break of the Pompenburg afternoon. Looking at the little white dog. And many more things.

That i forgot to get four packets of pea pods yesterday. I read the email too quick. Stupid. I only got one packet. Hmmm.

Thinking about me. My current state. I need to work! Work hard! Spring is starting. Filming. I am thinking about what i will make, what music i will use. I need to watch my old clips again. I need to learn Final Cut Pro. So i don’t think i’m too late.

I hope you will enjoy the upcoming Eastern weekend.

Salute!