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Mad World

“Mad World”
(originally by Tears for Fears)

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere

Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head, I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I’m dying
Are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It’s a very, very mad world, mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen

Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what’s my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I’m dying
Are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It’s a very, very mad world, mad world

Enlarging your world
Mad world

Published on October 21, 2021 at 6:00 by

Just one bad thing going on in the world

I’m not out there living my life. I’m in here, in my temporary house, living quietly. But i do have some antenna’s out there. I do hear about things going on. These twitters from Tinkebell and some she repeated about what happened on Lesbos got to me. It seems to me there are so many things going wrong. And here i am worried that in eight or nine months my money will run out. That is not a good way to behave and think Ellen!

And just another thing
There was a demonstration in Rotterdam last Sunday 17 October 2021. I saw this photograph of it on the Erasmus bridge. It looks weird. One comment said the police wanted to identify the ‘anarchists’. The anarchists are being said to be people clothed in black. Uuh..??

Another article on about this stating the left party Groenlinks (GreenLeft) is requesting a debate in the local council about the behaviour of the police and the ME on this demonstration.

A tweet saying there are questions about the police actions in the Tweede Kamer.

A post today in the left field online news outlet Joop Harde kritiek op gewelddadig optreden Rotterdamse politie bij woonprotest (Hard criticism on violent actions Rotterdam police at housing protest). Another post on the NOS website Verontwaardiging over politieoptreden tijdens woonprotest Rotterdam (Indignation about police actions during living protest Rotterdam).

Published on October 19, 2021 at 6:00 by

My temporary house

I have been living in my new temporary house for a week at the time of writing this. It is lovely. It is filled with all the things of other people. Books most of all. I do miss my own things. My own books, my own albums, cd’s. My own clothes, make-up, art works for on the wall. It is stuck in some company on 15 m3.

I don’t want to loose all that. A big part of my life. My old work!

Well, i don’t know how the future will look for me. I hope it won’t be that bad. But i can not be sure of course.

Enjoy your weekend. Salute!

Published on October 15, 2021 at 6:00 by

Keto minestrone


  • 1 large onion, diced
  • 3 fat gloves of garlic, cut in slices
  • 250 gram bacon
  • 1 fennel, diced
  • 1 bell pepper, diced
  • 2 large peppers, diced
  • stem of broccoli. diced
  • 100 grams green beans, sliced in three
  • 4 spring onions, diced
  • 2 carrots, diced
  • 1 can of tomato, cut up
  • 15 grams basil, torn up
  • 15 grams of dille, diced
  • chicken stock, 2 liters, you can use any type you like, i used cubes


  1. Put the onions in a large pan with olive oil, add the bacon after a minute or so. Put the lid on the pan and let it bake for a couple of minutes
  2. Add the carrot, fennel, bell pepper, peppers, broccoli stem, green beans, spring onions and tomato, let it simmer for around 10 minutes
  3. Add the stock, let simmer for half an hour
  4. Add the basil and dill
  5. Ready to serve!

I put two servings in a jar with a top and set those in the fridge to keep it fresh. In the pan i left two servings for tomorrow.

Published on October 13, 2021 at 6:00 by


Disgust (Middle French: desgouster, from Latin gustus, “taste”) is an emotional response of rejection or revulsion to something potentially contagious or something considered offensive, distasteful, or unpleasant. In The Expression of the Emotions in Man and Animals, Charles Darwin wrote that disgust is a sensation that refers to something revolting. Disgust is experienced primarily in relation to the sense of taste (either perceived or imagined), and secondarily to anything which causes a similar feeling by sense of smell, touch, or vision.

Published on October 12, 2021 at 6:00 by