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Human once more
Bloc Party: The Answer
Looking back on Oct 29, 2015
More than five years ago i made this video. I used the beginnings and thoughtless pieces i had filmed. The moving in past the floor and the window and the ceiling of my old house. This is a piece of work i love.
I just watched it again.Seeing the parts of my old home, seeing my face, my eyes as it was five years ago. It brought tears in my eyes.
I am still not sure how to turn my life around. I hope i will manage it.
Salute!
My House Rewatched
Today i rewatched a couple of clips i made several years ago, in 2015. Five years ago. It feels like yesterday, but it is also so far away.
The video i made in my house touched me. My cats are in there. Both of them, still looking healthy, a bit overweight. My things, my bed, the living room, the sliding doors.
It is good i’m watching these clips once again. I see the wobbliness, the haphazard editing. But i also see my life as it was then. I see the joy i feel while i am filming.
I have come a long way. I am still going on. I am not giving up. Not yet. Not while i have something to say. Something i believe in. With the whole of my heart.
Amen.
The Making of My Dreams
Published on January 7, 2020 at 6:00 by Ellen
Categorised in: Drawing and watercolour, Video clip
Music in the city
Human
The past six months i have been filming and editing and thinking about this short film. The last two months i asked friends if they wanted to participate. Most replied with a yes. Something i am very happy with. I am still not completely sure what this movie is about. One part is about people. Walking, playing, shopping. Living their lives. It is also about me living my life here in the centre of Rotterdam. I’m open to other meanings.
I hope you like it. Enjoy 🙂
Spring
I hope you will enjoy the video Spring. It was a pleasure working on it for the past months.
I will take a short vacation for the next two weeks. Baking cakes for a friend’s wedding. Enjoying my time off.
Salute!
The end
This is it. The end.
The thought came upon me earlier this week. Tuesday. I cried. I didn’t want to do this. But yes. I am gonna finish working on ellenpronk.com. For several reasons. First, i don’t have the money to pay for the hosting. So this place will be up and running only for a couple of weeks more. Second, my house will be sold. Next week the real estate agent will come by. I’m lucky in that sense. My house will not be auctioned, but sold regularly. Which hopefully leaves me with enough money to last me three or four years.
This is difficult. But i will be fine. I will still post photos on instagram, post updates on facebook, talk a bit on twitter. I won’t be gone. But this place will be finished. Also, because i feel i have done here what i set out to do. Thinking. Working. Looking. Writing. I found a few things i really like. Singing, yes. Filming, yes. So i have gained an awful lot.
Ending this blog does hurt a bit. I’ve said here multiple times how much i love to work here. Each day was a different day. Some very unexpected, others not that much. But all together the past three years felt amazing.
I’m not sure why i’m ending this now. Well, apart from the practical reasons i mentioned. Also, i do want to stay in control, not feel overwhelmed by what is happening. Compared to what happens to other people, my life still is quiet and not very exiting.
The final page i will give you is the chronological page, with every post i made here linked on it. Enjoy!
I will leave you with what to me is still the best i made here, the video clips.
Finally, as a wave goodbye, one of my favorite songs, Let it go.
Let it go
The snow glows white on the mountain tonight
Not a footprint to be seen
A kingdom of isolation,
And it looks like I’m the queen.
The wind is howling like this swirling storm inside
Couldn’t keep it in, heaven knows I tried!
Don’t let them in, don’t let them see
Be the good girl you always have to be
Conceal, don’t feel, don’t let them know
Well, now they know!
Let it go, let it go
Can’t hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn away and slam the door!
I don’t care
What they’re going to say
Let the storm rage on,
The cold never bothered me anyway!
It’s funny how some distance
Makes everything seem small
And the fears that once controlled me
Can’t get to me at all!
It’s time to see what I can do
To test the limits and break through
No right, no wrong, no rules for me I’m free!
Let it go, let it go
I am one with the wind and sky
Let it go, let it go
You’ll never see me cry!
Here I stand
And here I’ll stay
Let the storm rage on!
My power flurries through the air into the ground
My soul is spiraling in frozen fractals all around
And one thought crystallizes like an icy blast
I’m never going back,
The past is in the past!
Let it go, let it go
And I’ll rise like the break of dawn
Let it go, let it go
That perfect girl is gone!
Here I stand
In the light of day
Let the storm rage on,
The cold never bothered me anyway!
Goodbye for now,
With love, Ellen
Published on November 10, 2017 at 6:00 by Ellen