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My new house

After a week of no internet. I barely missed it. Taking my time with placing my furniture. I only need a couch. Gonna look at a friend who has one, i hope it sits well. I’m also gonna see if i need all i packed. I don’t think so.

I’m so happy!

Published on September 1, 2025 at 6:00 by
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The keys

It is still a mystery to me how this house came to me only two weeks ago. In my world, it is a wonder. No other words for it.

Tomorrow, or rather today Monday August 18 2025 for you my dear reader, i will get the keys. This Friday i will move all my stuff from home and from the place i stored all my furniture, books, records and drawings. After five and a half years of moving about with no fixed address, getting my post at the Paulus church – thank you so much!

It is almost too much for me to believe. But hey, it is true!

See you next week 🙂

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In town and during lunch

11 July 2025

After having lunch, this time a salmon sandwich, a cappuccino and a strawberry shell, I walk back through town over the high street. I looked at most of the people, not openly, but more hidden. My hands folded like I was praying. I took some photos in the midst of everyone.

I feel good 🙂

13 July 2025

I had my lunch at Donner this afternoon. I read the newspaper as usual. Two articles caught my eye: one about peace and deescalation, the other one about humans and nature and the different sorts of relation between them. Both i read carefully. I don;t have clear thought about these things. I did wonder though where the European countries would buy most of the war stuff. Yeah, of course. The United States. And Europe itself of course.

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Diary entries

1 July 2025
I’m sitting on a bench in front of a sustainable furniture shop next to Spirit and Gimsel. People are walking, biking, driving by. Today it is warm, the warmest day of the year sofar.
It all looks calm.

I just had lunch at Spirit. While I am writing this someone sat besides me and asked me for money. I said no.

2 July 2025
A warm day once again. Until five o’clock. Then the rain started, with a little bit of thunder and lightning. I put the window to the garden open. Outside it is cooler now.

I just had a talk with my friend and house lord. He is not sure I can stay here until 31 December. It is making me anxious. And it is all my own fault of course. Selling my house just like that. It is difficult. Damn.

4 July 2025
I have this knot inside me. I am thinking about what i will do next, and i do not know. I read. I watch the new season of the Sandman, i play wow, the prepatch for Mists of Pandaria. But it is all just a distraction.

But i keep going on. I don’t let it defeat me. Not yet.

I still haven’t given up. It is tempting though.

6 July 2025
I am still not sure which way is the best to go. I need to go through this anxious feeling i have. Joyfulness is so much nicer!

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