Wednesday 19 December 2018

In the morning i have an appointment with Ronald. He works at the garden of the Kinderparadijs (Children’s Paradise). It looks wonderful! I love the hedges made of wooden branches, around 80 centimeters wide. The shed is cleaned up. So many tools, two pizza ovens and quite a few electrical tools. The little pond besides the insect hotel. The small space below the wooden wall made in the hope hedgehogs will find the garden. The cauliflowers growing fiercely.

I film Ronald. Twice. We talk about saving the world. Working in the garden. And many other things.

Last week i discovered a vegan chef Gaz Oakley with his youtube channel avantgardevegan. I have picked his lasagna as my dish for next week around Christmas. I am not vegan myself, so i did think about choosing meat or vegan. I have decided to go for the vegan meatsubstitute, but do the béchamel sauce with butter and some cheese. I did buy some smoked paprika powder today. I do enjoy watching the many recipes of avantgardevegan, the seitan, tofu, tempeh, beans and chickpeas he uses.

I am actually starting to think about veganism more the past few weeks. Difficult to be honest. Ever since i lived on my own since 1985 i have eaten vegetarian and vegan meals regularly, but i never switched completely. It is not clear to me yet. I need more time. Way more time.

I took a month’s free Netflix account yesterday. My second free trial account since last year around this time. Last night i watched the first three episodes of The Rain, a Danish dystopian series. Maniac, Sabrina, Bird Box and many more i have added to my list. Will do a search for posts about worthwhile series and documentaries to watch.

This afternoon i will do a machine wash, fold some clothes that have been hanging over chairs in my living room for weeks. I will vacuum clean my house. Maybe i will start mending the duvet cover, the edge is loose over a meter wide. I will drink tea with a bit of chocolate. And watch some youtube clips and netflix a bit more. Yay!

Published on December 20, 2018 at 6:00 by

The quiet

I’m gonna take a short week of vacation next week. Looking forward to that. Christmas time. One day i will be going to my mother. The other day i will stay at home. Taking care of my own cat Muis and of the two cats from Pieter and Mary down the road.

Tomorrow i will have my last filming of a friend. And then i will start editing. I already a few things i will change. But i will have a week and a half of watching, changing small things ahead of me. Yeah i’m nervous. I hope it will turn out right. Of course i wish that i will be great. Wonderful. But also close to me. Small. Bright.

I don’t know.

I will fight for it. I know that. The months ahead.

See you tomorrow. Salute!

Published on December 19, 2018 at 6:00 by

Nervous

A quiet day in the garden, there were only two people there. One of them was me. Together with Hilde we spread most of the old wood chips in the paths around the apple trees. I also filmed her. Really happy with that. We talked a bit about relationships, being in love, intimacy.

I need to calm down. Get quiet. Find my rest. And work. Of course. Two more weeks. Two more weeks of filming and editing.

Salute!

Published on December 10, 2018 at 6:00 by

Increase

42. I / Increase

above SUN THE GENTLE, WIND
below CHêN THE AROUSING, THUNDER

The idea of increase is expressed in the fact that the strong lowest line of the upper trigram has sunk down and taken its place under the lower trigram. This conception also expresses the fundamental idea on which the Book of Changes is based. To rule truly is to serve.
A sacrifice of the higher element that produces an increase of the lower is called an out-and-out increase: it indicates the spirit that alone has power to help the world.

THE JUDGMENT

INCREASE. It furthers one
To undertake something.
It furthers one to cross the great water.

Sacrifice on the part of those above for the increase of those below fills the people with a sense of joy and gratitude that is extremely valuable for the flowering of the commonwealth. When people are thus devoted to their leaders, undertakings are possible, and even difficult and dangerous enterprises will succeed. Therefore in such times of progress and successful development it is necessary to work and make the best use of time. This time resembles that of the marriage of heaven and earth, when the earth partakes of the creative power of heaven, forming and bringing forth living beings. The time of INCREASE does not endure, therefore it must be utilized while it lasts.

THE IMAGE

Wind and thunder: the image of INCREASE.
Thus the superior man:
If he sees good, he imitates it;
If he has faults, he rids himself of them.

While observing how thunder and wind increase and strengthen each other, a man can not the way to self-increase and self-improvement. When he discovers good in others, he should imitate it and thus make everything on earth his own. If he perceives something bad in himself, let him rid himself of it. In this way he becomes free of evil. This ethical change represents the most important increase of personality.

THE LINES

Nine at the beginning means:
It furthers one to accomplish great deeds.
Supreme good fortune. No blame.

If great help comes to a man from on high, this increased strength must be used to achieve something great for which he might otherwise never have found energy, or readiness to take responsibility. Great good fortune is produced by selflessness, and in bringing about great good fortune, he remains free of reproach.

Six in the third place means:
One is enriched through unfortunate events.
No blame, if you are sincere
And walk in the middle,
And report with a seal to the prince.

A time of blessing and enrichment has such powerful effects that even events ordinarily unfortunate must turn out to the advantage of those affected by them. These persons become free of error, and by acting in harmony with truth they gain such inner authority that they exert influence as if sanctioned by the letter and seal.

° Nine in the fifth place means:
If in truth you have a kind heart, ask not.
Supreme good fortune.
Truly, kindness will be recognized as your virtue.

True kindness does not count upon nor ask about merit and gratitude but acts from inner necessity. And such a truly kind heart finds itself rewarded in being recognized, and thus the beneficent influence will spread unhindered.

52. Kên / Keeping Still, Mountain

above KêN KEEPING STILL, MOUNTAIN
below KêN KEEPING STILL, MOUNTAIN

The image of this hexagram is the mountain, the youngest son of heaven and earth. The male principle is at the top because it strives upward by nature; the female principle is below, since the direction of its movement has come to its normal end.
In its application to man, the hexagram turns upon the problem of achieving a quiet heart. It is very difficult to bring quiet to the heart. While Buddhism strives for rest through an ebbing away of all movement in nirvana, the Book of Changes holds that rest is merely a state of polarity that always posits movement as its complement. Possibly the words of the text embody directions for the practice of yoga.

THE JUDGMENT

KEEPING STILL. Keeping his back still
So that he no longer feels his body.
He goes into his courtyard
And does not see his people.
No blame.

True quiet means keeping still when the time has come to keep still, and going forward when the time has come to go forward. In this way rest and movement are in agreement with the demands of the time, and thus there is light in life.
The hexagram signifies the end and the beginning of all movement. The back is named because in the back are located all the nerve fibers that mediate movement. If the movement of these spinal nerves is brought to a standstill, the ego, with its restlessness, disappears as it were. When a man has thus become calm, he may turn to the outside world. He no longer sees in it the struggle and tumult of individual beings, and therefore he has that true peace of mind which is needed for understanding the great laws of the universe and for acting in harmony with them. Whoever acts from these deep levels makes no mistakes.

THE IMAGE

Mountains standing close together:
The image of KEEPING STILL.
Thus the superior man
Does not permit his thoughts
To go beyond his situation.

The heart thinks constantly. This cannot be changed, but the movements of the heart-that is, a man’s thoughts-should restrict themselves to the immediate situation. All thinking that goes beyond this only makes the heart sore.

Published on December 7, 2018 at 6:00 by