A quick selfie
Categories for General
One way or another
The last couple of days i find myself thinking of finding a job nursing. I will start looking for a job together with an education. I also know the company i work for now has some possibilities, but it does take longer. My current job, cleaning houses for the sick and/or elderly i find to be very valuable. It is not fun, it is not entertaining, but i feel my time is well spend and the people do value my time i commit to them. The only drawback is that it doesn’t pay well.
I hope this idea bears fruit. I hope i am not too old.
I am working on my cv right now. I will write to a hospital early this week. The signs tell that they are really missing nurses, so here i am hoping.
Enjoy the week! Salute!
2. Soul Food
Everybody on earth knowing
that beauty is beautiful
makes ugliness.
Everybody knowing
that goodness is good
makes wickedness.
For being and nonbeing
arise together;
hard and easy
complete each other;
long and short
shape each other;
high and low
depend on each other;
note and voice
make the music together;
before and after
follow each other.
That’s why the wise soul
does without doing,
teaches without talking.
The things of this world
exist, they are;
you can’t refuse them.
To bear and not to own;
to act and not lay claim;
to do the work and let it go:
for just letting it go
is what makes it stay.
The great refusal
There is this big difference i notice between reading books, newspapers and online news outlets and living in this world.
I am reading a book with the title De grote weigering (The great refusal). This is a short book with at its core a retelling of Marcuse’s One-dimensional Man, a book published in 1964. The same year in which i was born.
It feels to me my mind is following two completely different streams. On the one hand all the texts i have read, on the other hand my living in this world and the force i feel myself to work and earn my own income and take care of myself. Not that i mind that, but it is tough.
Writing this i do think ooh of course it is tough, get with it woman! This is the life you have picked for yourself.
I do enjoy reading The great Refusal. It is available in Dutch only.
Following > Treading
Throwing the I Ching, i got 17. Following going into 10. Treading.
I start to feel a bit better. It does take me time to think about everything i did over the past few months and see where it all went wrong. It is hard. My life is hard, but it is all by my own choice.
So i am working right now. In home care, a lowly paid job. It’s fine for now. I am learning.
I will keep up one update a week. I’m still feeling a bit low, but it does get better over time.
Enjoy your week 🙂
On the other side
Sitting in the garden, hearing the wind, the birds, the cars in the background, almost non existing. I feel the quiet coming over me.
A confession, i do feel a bit down. My life continues, there are difficulties and troubles. But i manage, so far.
I have two jobs. One in a vegan cupcake shop for one day a week, selling and cleaning up and making lunch. I like it, i work with two women my age. It feels good. The other job is in home care, for three days a week. I can live of it, for the meantime.
This website will need to take a step back. Only one update a week.
It is fine.
🙂
A short break once again
I’m tired. That is it for now. I’ll be back Monday.
I’m taking a break from working here. One week for starters, it could be longer. I don’t know! I will keep you up to date of course.
A short post
I have been busy talking to all different people over the past few days. My mind is clearing up a bit.
I need to save myself. I can do it!
Spinner
Today i went back to the house i stayed in a couple of months back. This time together with Spinner, the cat!
He does need to get used to me a bit.
He is a sweety pie!
With beautiul green eyes 🙂
Today is dinner and movietime!
Today, Sunday, i am making a dinner for my neighbour from the apartment above. A Spanish kind of chicken thigh stew with rice (for him) and a salad with radicchio and rocket and avocado and walnuts and tarragon and mint.
After that we are gonna watch a movie: Everything Everywhere All at Once. Very curious about this movie, seems right up my alley.
That is it for today. See you tomorrow!
PS. It is after ten, my neighbour just left. It was a lovely evening in which we had something good to eat, a nice glass of wine, some green tea for him and a coffee for me together with some chocolate. Lovely!
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