My own worst enemy

It is hard to feel free. Independent. Not following the rules so many people feel are directing their lives. Free to laugh, to talk, to be angry, to fight for what is right. I am my own worst enemy.

I am still standing in one point, pivoting around. Not sure which way to move into. I think fantasies are holding me back, keeping me bolted here. I need to let go.

I hope i can get somewhere. I hope i can defeat myself. Give myself something worthwhile to do.

I feel confused. Not happy with the life i have here. Not sure of what i want. Standing still.

My apologies for this terrible confused post. Tomorrow i will feel better, hopefully.