Stormy weather
Love love love
Today, the day this post will be published is my birthday. Today I turn 56. I am not sure how this feels. I know it is above middle age, but i still feel young.
Today, Tuesday 25 February, i talked with a friend about what we want in life. I said i am still looking for the love of my life. I also said i feel in conflict with this desire, this wanting in me. I said i know i should lead my own life, do my own things. Not entirely single living though, i am a social being, as are most other people. But to find someone to share my life with, someone to talk with about anything which comes in my mind, and talk about anything coming up in his mind. To be silent with. To hug. To smile at. To hold hands with. All these simple things i miss so much.
I don’t know why my life makes it so hard for myself to live. I don’t get it. I am usually quite happy. Cheerful. Bright. But it is hard. As well.
Another day. Another year. My life turns on. Most of the time.
Unsure
I slept long today. Not sure why. I made some oatmeal porridge. Read my Iris Murdoch book. Went upstairs and played a little Warcraft. Sitting alone in the house right now. Ted and Aussie are to the movies.
I spend a couple of minutes thinking about the title. Unsure.
Unsure.
Coffee in the cafe
Saturday morning i went to the small oogstmarkt close by. It was windy. Very windy. There were fewer stalls than usual. I met a friend and we sat on a bench. It wasn’t that cold. But yes, windy. And chilly, sort of. Another friend joined us. I said i had told my housemate that the coffee stall wasnt going to be there, so he would bring along coffee. We waited. We talked a bit. Another friend came by.
When all people we expected had arrived, we had a talk. Someone suggested going to a pub. There are plenty nearby. So we did. It felt like playing truant, spijbelen. (What an odd translation. I didn’t know this word.) We went to the hip cafe around the corner and drank coffee and chatted about all sorts of things. I talked with a friend about the upcoming ending of our western civilization. When will this happen? I talked about my idea of buying less, less, less. With the upcoming doom of people without jobs. That we should help each other. Have old office buildings full of sleeping rooms and soup kitchens. We talked about people without a network of friends surrounding them.
It was a lovely morning. Interesting talks.
And i only have one more month to get invited to De wereld draait door! Damn!
The photos in this post are made Sunday February 23 at the Vredestuin.
A cleaning up day
Today i cleaned up the gas stove, the chest of drawers standing next to it, the tiles on the wall behind it, the floor below the gas stove and the chest, the pedestal on which the plant stands behind it. I had the radio on, playing loud. I sang along with it. I danced occasionally. The cats were curious. Sniffing around. Looking at me.
I loved it. 🙂
Have a good weekend. Enjoy!
Woodchips
Empty spots
A portrait, sort of
Published on February 18, 2020 at 6:00 by Ellen
Categorised in: Drawing and watercolour
Tarot
I had seen the tarot cards in the house. Last week i asked if Ted wanted to lay the cards for me. Yesterday he took the cards and asked me to shuffle them and divide them in three packs with my left hand. He made one pack of these ones and started to deal. He used the Celtic Cross Spread. His explanation was a bit different from the one below which i copied from a website. The three cards at the right side are helper cards.
- The Significator represents you (the querent) and your current state of being.
- The Crossing denotes that which opposes or influences you.
- The Foundation addresses the origin of your question.
- The Recent Past represents past events and concerns.
- The Crown addresses issues that are significant in the present or may come to pass in the future. This card foretells future events which you may or may not occur, depending upon how you respond to the present situation.
- The Future depicts that which lies ahead.
- Emotions signifies the current state of your emotional self.
- External Forces represents the influence of others in your life as well as trends in your relationships with others.
- Hopes and Desires stands for the hopes and desires you have for the outcome of your question.
- The Outcome is the ultimate outcome your question. Remember, the future is not predetermined. Interpret this card in the context of the entire reading and as an indicator of the path you are currently on, but not bound to the reading.
The first card is covered. Six of Cups, it stands for innocence and nostalgia. The card covering it is the Star, loss, theft, privation, abandonment; another reading says–hope bright prospects, Reversed: Arrogance, haughtiness, impotence.
I do see the swords above and to the left. The top one shows avoidance. The left one shows feeling trapped and oppressed by others.
The Page of Coins, the Queen of Coins and the Knight of Coins are all in this laying.
The outcome card is the Ace of Cups. The ace of cups indicates a new beginning of an emotional nature. It can signify the birth of a child, or the beginning of a love situation that affects us deeply. It is generally a card of happiness, and the beginning of many blessings. A new business, a relationship, success on the path is inevitable.
My helper cards show happiness, merriment and work.
The explanation in this post differs from the one i got when the cards were spread out for me. It doesn’t matter to me. I’m not after an ultra fine reading.
I was a bit surprised by the apparent story in this spread. I feel very happy with this reading.
Mending
