I don’t mind. I’ve been alone a large part of my life.
Solitude. It can be difficult to keep yourself together in solitude. To trust yourself. Not other people outside of your own world, who keep on saying the same thing over and over again. Be sensible. Be smart.
I do know i am not the one to choose my life. It is chosen for me, by the world outside me, by the people all around. By what they do, by what they do not do.
A life alone or a life in the midst of the world.
I am not the one to pick either. I can only lead my life, the way i see is best.
Today i decided to do another Carpenters song. I put on the Gold album in spotify and started with Yesterday Once More. One of my favourites! But no, this wasn’t the song i was after. I did enjoy singing along with We’ve Only Just Begon and Only Yesterday. But i was looking for a song with birds on a telephone line and trees that don’t bend.
As it turns out, they do bend.
Enjoy!
It’s Going To Take Some Time This Time – The Carpenters
It’s going to take some time this time
To get myself in shape
I really feel out-of line this time
I really missed the gate
The birds on the telephone line (next time)
Are cryin’ out to me (next time)
And I won’t be so blind next time
And I’ll find some harmony
But it’s going to take some time this time
And I can’t make demands
But like the young trees in the wintertime
I’ll learn how to bend
After all the tears we’ve spent
How could we make amends
So it’s one more round for experience
And I’m on the road again
And it’s going to take some time this time
It’s going to take some time this time
No matter what I’ve planned
But like the young trees in the wintertime
I’ll learn how to bend
After all the tears we’ve spent
How could we make amends
So it’s one more round for experience
And I’m on the road again
And it’s going to take some time this time
I worked in the garden again today. It wasn’t cold, but it was wet. A mild rain running through the entire afternoon. Halfway i didn’t care anymore and let myself get wet and sat on the ground.
I took photos of the different vegetables and fruits growing in the garden. The weather has been good the past two weeks. Around 20ºC usually – apart from last weekend, when it was a lot colder – and a bit of rain almost every day. All the vegetables are growing fiercely. So are the weeds, the thistles, the grasses, buttercups that stay low on the ground. It is lovely to walk through and look at all the green lusciousness. I don’t know for how long i will work in this garden, to be honest. But for now i’m enjoying myself thoroughly.
I’ve been planting the seedlings today. Beetroot, some leftover corn, a bit of courgette.
Next the photos. Adding a description for the ones i know, the other ones, sorry, you have to tell me what they are. I’m still a beginner gardener.
Today, Thursday 19 May, i went to visit my mother. We went out for a bit of shopping, got some herring for lunch and talked for quite some time.
After i got back in Rotterdam i walked up the stairs, made in front of the Central Station, going up to the roof of the Groot Handelsgebouw. It was quite a walk. I did feel my legs ache a bit. I did stop for a bit and looked around halfway. Eeew… i’m a bit scared of the height. I walked away from the side and stuck to the inside. Up on the roof it was lovely. You can walk around the whole roof, viewing the station, the north part of Rotterdam, Schiedam at the west side, the river to the south and the high rise buildings close to it.
I did film. Walking up the stairs, walking down. Looking around at the roof. I will go back early next week and film some more. After i watched what i have got now and look for more types of shots i want to use. Letting the idea come to live slowly.
For tonight, some views. The sun came out while i was walking up there. Yay!
I sat on the black stone bench around the library eating my chips with mayo and curry and onions. Looking at the faces of the people walking past. Some were distrustful. Some were closed up inside. Some were thinking of what they were going to do. Some were not thinking at all. Some were talking. Some were listening.
I moved to the wooden benches around the Blaak station. I looked at the birds.
I got my veggies. More tomatoes, some apples, some strawberries.
Then into the Albert Heijn. Cookies, cottage cheese, food for my cats, eggs.
Strange how the world simply goes on and on all the time. It simply doesn’t stop and think. No time.
I went to the Vredestuin today. People were dropping in slowly. We had a bit of coffee before we started working. I went in the greenhouse and planted cucumber, pumpkin, a sort of broccoli / quinoa plant, Marigold. First i put all the pots in the trays, leaving one pot part empty so it is easier to water the tray. I went through the soil and made all the lumps smaller. Then i filled all the pots. I pressed with a filled pot all the soil a bit tighter. Cucumbers and pumpkins were seeded with two, the other ones, the broccoli type and the Marigold were planted with 5 seeds a pot. Really tiny seeds, hard to separate, but i managed.
I took home some spring onions, potatoes, lettuce. Tomorrow i will make some onion and potato soup, with the lettuce. I was too tired this evening to do anything with it.
Tomorrow i will go to the Central Station, where the last week build stairs to the top of the Groot Handelsgebouw will be opened. I will make a film of the stairs itself, the people climbing it and the view from the rooftop. Hopefully i’ll have the video edited by the end of the week.
I’m gonna lye on the couch for a bit more. I will look for something warm first. It is a bit cold, and i have already put out my stove. It’ll get better, by the end of the week. A glass of red wine to accompany me. Watching a James Bond movie. I’ll turn into bed early this evening.
In this video i added clips i filmed the past two months. I didn’t film for a bit after the last video i made five months ago. I had to give myself a bit of time to think about these video’s.
The music in this video is from Idris Muhammed. The music i’ve known ever since i got 1989 Paul’s Boutique from the Beastie Boys. Only a couple of years ago when i found this playlist from a fan with all music sampled on this cd i discovered Idris Muhammed. This particular song Loran’s Dance is wonderful.
Some of the clips, the ones made in the Kralingse Bos, i made this week. The three starting the video are from that walk. I love the sound of the birds. The sounds of the cars not so much, but that is life in a big city. It is still part of the scene. I also love the end scene. I sat in the Heemtuin for a while in front of a swan sleeping in front of me. He woke up and started to wash himself.
I didn’t edit this movie that much. I did hustle all the clips, apart form the beginning and the end. I also added cross dissolve transitions between each clip. I did shorten around half of the clips, but still left them rather long. I enjoy watching these long clips, the wind blowing, the people walking and talking and smiling.
The title! Well, that wasn’t easy. For a couple of days i was trying to find a good title. Yesterday i typed in Life. I liked it. I still do.
