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What is coming next?

I’m still not sure what my next move will be. Well, apart from the drawing of course. It does take time. I need to have a clear head on what i want to draw. Stop halfway an idea and jump to the next one. I love it.

This Sunday i had a talk with an old garden friend. He had met a love interest through tinder. He wasn’t a big fan, but said that through corona and the lack of places to meet new people, he had caved in and actually met someone he really liked. He did have me thinking for a short time.

But i am not that actively looking for a love interest. It is on my mind, sure. But it’s alost like it guides me through this world. These feelings i feel deep inside. This longing i have. I do want to get out of it. Step outside it. Become clear headed. Get my life in order. Face the world and talk and smile and laugh and work. And then maybe meet someone who i like, feel attracted to, can talk with about anything really and cuddle with and prepare food for. Just normal things. But also not ordinary. Special.

That is my dream.
Something of me.
Something of the world outside.
Something with somebody else.

Published on July 21, 2021 at 6:00 by
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Grow up

I keep on thinking this, over and over again: grow up! Stop whining, stop thinking about yourself the whole time, stop it! Stop dreaming away, stop fantasizing, stop it!

I do know, of course, that my story is not completely like this. This is not what i do the whole time. Honestly. But what i really want to do is misty, vague, far off. Apart from what i do already: making photos, making drawings, making videos, singing songs, making walks.

I am in the middle of a drawing. Stuck. Not sure what to draw next in this big empty space in the middle. I had ideas, but they evaporated. So i need to work on this, hope i will find something worthwhile to draw, something which says what i feel.

I hope i can keep myself on course. Stick to what i know i can do best.

To you, have a good weekend. Salute!

Published on July 16, 2021 at 6:00 by
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Little stars

Ashley Tisdale
Demi Lovato
Drew Barrymore
Miley Cyrus
Hilary Duff
Justin Timberlake
Kristen Stewart
Leonardo Dicaprio
Lindsey Lohan
Mary-Kate and Ashley Olsen
Selena Gomez
Vanessa Hudgens
Britney Spears
Emma Watson
Zac Efron
Zendaya
Published on July 15, 2021 at 6:00 by
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New pages

Around November 2020 i got the idea to add more pages to this website. I wanted to high lite some of the content available here; the photos, videos, songs and drawings. Last week i made some changes to the header of this website. Most importantly i made it smaller. I decided to keep it simple. An change the header menu. I removed the old Contact page and added in four new pages.

Even though this is old content, i do hope you will enjoy these pages and what they show.

Published on July 12, 2021 at 6:00 by
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Summer holiday

Yesterday i wrote about my holiday for this summer. Maybe in a week or so i wrote. I thought about it last night, and came to the conclusion that today would be my last post before my three weeks holiday. July 12 i will be back here.

I am looking forward to these three weeks. Walking, drawing, reading will be what i will do mostly.

Enjoy yourself. Don’t forget the summer solstice, Monday, 21 June 2021, 05:32 CEST.

Salute!

Published on June 18, 2021 at 6:00 by
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Warm

Today i woke up around a quarter past seven. Then i fell sleep again. I got out of bed half past ten. It was warm. It still is warm. I read my rss feeds this morning. Watch some youtube. A new Simple Living Alaska! Hunting for salmon. A bit of gaming.

In the afternoon i went out and emptied the compost bin in the Spoortuin. After that i went to the supermarket and got coffee, salted almonds and a small tub of yoghurt.

I am working on a drawing. I hope it will turn out well. But i am giving myself two months or so before it will be done. So i will probably take a three week vacation before that. After next week? Hmm maybe.

I’m a bit tired. Most likely the warmth. Nothing to do about it.

That is it for today. I hope you have a good time. Salute!

Published on June 17, 2021 at 6:00 by
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