Thoughts

No i won’t share any. I’m simply thinking. About the hails falling early this afternoon. Sitting in the sunshine drinking tea in a break of the Pompenburg afternoon. Looking at the little white dog. And many more things.

That i forgot to get four packets of pea pods yesterday. I read the email too quick. Stupid. I only got one packet. Hmmm.

Thinking about me. My current state. I need to work! Work hard! Spring is starting. Filming. I am thinking about what i will make, what music i will use. I need to watch my old clips again. I need to learn Final Cut Pro. So i don’t think i’m too late.

I hope you will enjoy the upcoming Eastern weekend.

Salute!

Published on March 30, 2018 at 6:00 by

Vreeken

Today, Wednesday, i went to Dordrecht to the shop Vreeken.

I got a few seeds for flowers. Two different sorts of calendula, one packet for edible flowers and one with many wild flowers.

My main goal was to buy a good gardening book. I asked the people in the garden and the book Handboek Ecologisch Tuinieren (Handbook Ecological Gardening) was recommended. The bible! It is a hefty book and i haven’t read a line, but it sure does feel like a good book to have and learn from.

I took the train on my way there and i went back on the boat, with the Waterbus. It was raining the whole time. But still, it was good sitting on the boat and watching all the factories and houses on the Merwede. Lovely.

Published on March 29, 2018 at 6:00 by

Before Completion

50. Ting / The Caldron

above LI THE CLINGING, FIRE
below SUN THE GENTLE, WIND, WOOD

The six lines construct the image of Ting, THE CALDRON; at the bottom are the legs, over them the belly, then come the ears (handles), and at the top the carrying rings. At the same time, the image suggests the idea of nourishment. The ting, cast of bronze, was the vessel that held the cooked viands in the temple of the ancestors and at banquets. The heads of the family served the food from the ting into the bowls of the guests.
THE WELL (48) likewise has the secondary meaning of giving nourishment, but rather more in relation to the people. The ting, as a utensil pertaining to a refined civilization, suggests the fostering and nourishing of able men, which redounded to the benefit of the state.
This hexagram and THE WELL are the only two in the Book of Changes that represent concrete, men-made objects. Yet here too the thought has its abstract connotation.
Sun, below, is wood and wind; Li, above, is flame. Thus together they stand for the flame kindled by wood and wind, which likewise suggests the idea of preparing food.

THE JUDGMENT

THE CALDRON. Supreme good fortune.
Success.

While THE WELL relates to the social foundation of our life, and this foundation is likened to the water that serves to nourish growing wood, the present hexagram refers to the cultural superstructure of society. Here it is the wood that serves as nourishment for the flame, the spirit. All that is visible must grow beyond itself, extend into the realm of the invisible. Thereby it receives its true consecration and clarity and takes firm root in the cosmic order.
Here we see civilization as it reaches its culmination in religion. The ting serves in offering sacrifice to God. The highest earthly values must be sacrificed to the divine. But the truly divine does not manifest itself apart from man. The supreme revelation of God appears in prophets and holy men. To venerate them is true veneration of God. The will of God, as revealed through them, should be accepted in humility; this brings inner enlightenment and true understanding of the world, and this leads to great good fortune and success.

THE IMAGE

Fire over wood:
The image of THE CALDRON.
Thus the superior man consolidates his fate
By making his position correct.

The fate of fire depends on wood; as long as there is wood below, the fire burns above. It is the same in human life; there is in man likewise a fate that lends power to his life. And if he succeeds in assigning the right place to life and to fate, thus bringing the two into harmony, he puts his fate on a firm footing. These words contain hints about fostering of life as handed on by oral tradition in the secret teachings of Chinese yoga.

Nine in the third place means:
The handle of the ting is altered.
One is impeded in his way of life.
The fat of the pheasant is not eaten.
Once rain falls, remorse is spent.
Good fortune comes in the end.

The handle is the means for lifting up the ting. If the handle is altered, the ting cannot be lifted up and used, and, sad to say, the delicious food in it, such as pheasant fat, cannot be eaten by anyone.
This describes a man who, in a highly evolved civilization, finds himself in a place where no one notices or recognizes him. This is a severe block to his effectiveness. All of his good qualities and gifts of mind thus needlessly go to waste. But if he will only see to it that he is possessed of something truly spiritual, the time is bound to come, sooner or later, when the difficulties will be resolved and all will go well. The fall of rain symbolizes here, as in other instances, release of tension.

64. Wei Chi / Before Completion

above LI THE CLINGING, FLAME
below K’AN THE ABYSMAL, WATER

This hexagram indicates a time when the transition from disorder to order is not yet completed. The change is indeed prepared for, since all the lines in the upper trigram are in relation to those in the lower. However, they are not yet in their places. While the preceding hexagram offers an analogy to autumn, which forms the transition from summer to winter, this hexagram presents a parallel to spring, which leads out of winter’s stagnation into the fruitful time of summer. With this hopeful outlook the Book of Changes come to its close.

THE JUDGMENT

BEFORE COMPLETION. Success.
But if the little fox, after nearly completing the crossing,
Gets his tail in the water,
There is nothing that would further.

The conditions are difficult. The task is great and full of responsibility. It is nothing less than that of leading the world out of confusion back to order. But it is a task that promises success, because there is a goal that can unite the forces now tending in different directions. At first, however, one must move warily, like an old fox walking over ice. The caution of a fox walking over ice is proverbial in China. His ears are constantly alert to the cracking of the ice, as he carefully and circumspectly searches out the safest spots. A young fox who as yet has not acquired this caution goes ahead boldly, and it may happen that he falls in and gets his tail wet when he is almost across the water. Then of course his effort has been all in vain. Accordingly, in times “before completion,” deliberation and caution are the prerequisites of success.

THE IMAGE

Fire over water:
The image of the condition before transition.
Thus the superior man is careful
In the differentiation of things,
So that each finds its place.

When fire, which by nature flames upward, is above, and water, which flows downward, is below, their effects take opposite directions and remain unrelated. If we wish to achieve an effect, we must first investigate the nature of the forces in question and ascertain their proper place. If we can bring these forces to bear in the right place, they will have the desired effect and completion will be achieved. But in order to handle external forces properly, we must above all arrive at the correct standpoint ourselves, for only from this vantage can we work correctly.

Published on March 28, 2018 at 6:00 by

Mistakes

I am feeling better, slowly. Happier. Cheerful. More daring. Like the dancing back home last week. Something i might have thought about earlier, but never did.

I’m not there yet. Not yet at the end. Still growing, developing, learning. Making mistakes, sure.

Like last Friday in the garden, i went home with an uncomfortable feeling. I wasn’t sure about the end, where everybody was asked to help move a couple of wooden banks. Heavy! I didn’t like it. But i still went along and tried to help as much as i can. But at the end i had a short talk with the one person asking us, telling her i could have left if i wanted to.

Also on Friday i had a talk with some other people. I was extreme, saying things i’m not even sure i believe in.

This Sunday i had a second talk about moving the wooden banks. I think it went better. I could say clearly why i am at the garden, working, photographing, sitting, talking. And no, i am not the hardest worker. I do love to be there, being outside my house, being in nature in the center of Rotterdam.

A second talk was with the person i had the extreme talk with. I apologized. Said i was thinking about many things, questioning many things people say as if it is normal. Which i don’t think it is. But i don’t want to convert anyone, i don’t want to push anyone in my way of thinking.

Other things i’m puzzled by, sort of happy with. The girl that came by two weeks ago. What she said near the end. She was there ‘for a bit’, ‘eventjes’. A couple of times that word popped up. I still think about it. Why was she saying it? To not commit? While nobody was asking her to. But maybe she felt something. Still, it was nice she was there for a couple of hours and worked with us. But it keeps singing in my mind, trying to figure out why she used those words.

So many things to think about.

I an reading The Philosophy of the I Ching by Carol K. Anthony once again. I do enjoy it. It gets its message across clear to me. I still don’t believe in God, but there is a lot more in this book besides that.

Modesty refers to an awareness of that which is higher than ourself – we respect the unknown and recognize the insufficiency of our inferior powers. It means we are determined to be led rather than to lead, that we will flow with events rather than resist them, and that we will remain unstructured in mind rather than defend ourself with fixed ideas. It means that we maintain a certain humility so that we protect our dignity as a sacred trust, and do not sacrifice our higher nature for the sake of our lower nature. This sort of modesty, founded on a continuing conscientiousness, accords with our true, original nature.

Source: The Philosophy of the I Ching, Carol K. Anthony – Download

Published on March 27, 2018 at 6:00 by

Dancewalking

Wednesday, on returning back in Rotterdam from my visit to Amsterdam, i dancewalked home. I had my music on. LL Cool J’s Mama Said Knock You Out, Nelly’s Hot In Herre, Conny Froboess’ Zwei Kleine Italianer. Walking in the rhythm, moving my hands. Towards the end i was actually dancing.

Some people laughed. The schoolgirl starting dancing with her friends. The man in a wheelchair smiled at me. The car honked.

Brilliant.

Published on March 23, 2018 at 6:00 by

Freezing in the garden

Seedlings in the greenhouse
Leaves bursting open
Collecting all the garbage spread around
Spreading woodchips around the herbal spiral (crescent?)
The chicken coop
.. and more garbage collecting
Flowers!
Lovely
Yep!
Rose hip
Blackberry bushes
Daniel in the woodchips
Me
More me
Published on March 19, 2018 at 6:00 by