A walk, something to eat and a good talk

A bike with flowers on our way to the forest
The clematis growing on the street leading towards the Kralingse Bos.
The nest of a little bird whose name i forgot of course.
Decaying trees
The sun!
Edible plants Nitai had picked. I have put them in a booklet in my bag. For me to find in years to come. 🙂
A spider's web
A moorhen with two young ones
Published on May 6, 2020 at 6:00 by

A walk around

Today i made a short walk to the Vredestuin Noord and back. On my way over there i walked past the canal. I love the month of May. Exquisite!
The sun is shining bright. The shadows are deep and dark.
Besides the bike path there are many flowers. Mainly daisies here.
A borage
I went to the Vredestuin Noord. This path to the greenhouse is lovely this time of year.
This field of magenta flowers is lovely too.
A majestic tree on the Noordsingel. Or is it the Bergsingel here?
Published on May 5, 2020 at 6:00 by

Obstruction

What should i do?

It is May 2020. I have been living in the place i am now for three months. The deal is i will live here for four months. So i only have four more weeks to find something else.

This is not something new. I knew this from the the beginning i started to live here. But i did not think about it too much. I had my fall, the accident on 3 February. That was a big thing for me. And i enjoy my time here.

But it is enough. I realize that.

I feel lost. I know this place is like a branch i can rest on for a short while, before i need to move on. I’m not sure what to do. So i better be extremely careful.

So i threw the I Ching, after i wrote the first part of this post. I got two signs with one changing line. The first sign is 39 Obstruction. The changing line is the top line, a six. When this line changed i got the resulting sign de 53 Development. Both these signs seem to fit my question and my current situation. An obstacle and a slow development.

A slow development is what i am used to the past years. I have been the most important factor in that. When i sold my house, but could live in it for two more years for rent. That was a slow movement.

The Obstruction starts with a description. A dangerous drop lying in front of us, behind us a steep mountain. Surrounded by obstacles. Obstacles which can and need to be overcome. It tells us to face the upcoming troubles and withdraw as a preparation for surmounting the difficulties. We need to find a connection with like minded friends and accept the guidance of someone who can deal with the difficulties. We need to be inspired with the will to keep on going. Especially when our trying seems to lead us away from our goals. An inner sustained course will lead to salvation. This sign, which will last only a short time, is important for the development of our character.

The changing line at the top says the following:

Going leads to obstructions,
Coming leads to great good fortune.
It furthers one to see the great man.

Here a man is shown, who has left behid the world and her works. When the time of obstacles comes, it would seem easy to leave behind the world and go to the hereafter. This way is not open to him. His duty calls him back to the world. His experience and his inner freedom will make it possible to achieve some grand that will lead to salvation.

This changing line leads to sign 53 Development. The maiden is given in marriage. Good fortune! Every passage has its pace. Acting in haste is not right. The correct way to development is the refinement of ones own personality. Gentleness, the slow adjusting, but at the same time the penetration is the visible result from an inner restfulness. The gradual development gives stability. Only stability gives the certainty the slow progression will not weaken.

The image is of a tree on a mountain. It grows gradually. The influence on people can only be gradual. One needs to work on her own moral development with constant care.

——

Thank you.

*bow*

Published on May 4, 2020 at 6:00 by

Planting

A border of plants in Park Pompenburg
With a view on the city
Broad beans in flower
Lovely flower, no idea of the name
Green cherries
Wild garlic and nettle
The Echinacea planted out. Seeded in October last year, it needs a cold period
Planted out in three different spots, two in the flower border
... and one close to the almond trees
A dandelion seed head
A pink rose with a lovely smell 🙂
Published on April 30, 2020 at 6:00 by

So many voices

I am able to listen to many different voices saying all kinds of different things. I listen to the press conferences of the Dutch government. I listen to the Dutch news on television. I listen to the news programs, some talk shows. I listen to some youtube channels. Jordan Peterson has my ear, Rebel Wisdom, gardeners, scientists, make up ladies, MadSeasonShow, Russel Brand i’m getting into. This is just a fraction of what sparks my interest.

I also speak to people around me. This afternoon i had a serious conversation with a fellow gardener about friendship. A good talk.

One thing i said in that talk is sticking with me. I talked about the time i wasn’t seeing any friends, around eight years. I said i had learned many things in that time. Things about myself. I said i got out stronger.

I also said i was much happier now than before that lonely time.

I am really happy with that. I still feel that inside of me. Happiness.

Today was a good day! Salute!

Published on April 29, 2020 at 6:00 by

Death

Today i was thinking about what i wrote last Thursday for my post on Friday.

Right now i’m in an in between place. Not yet leaving behind my past, not yet looking to the future. This pain i feel is something i need to deal with. I need to give it a place to rest. I know i can. I know. But it is hard, difficult, painful.

Today i came across several articles and posts and videos which were directing me in the same direction:

  • Liminality
  • . In anthropology, liminality (from the Latin word līmen, meaning “a threshold”) is the quality of ambiguity or disorientation that occurs in the middle stage of a rite of passage, when participants no longer hold their pre-ritual status but have not yet begun the transition to the status they will hold when the rite is complete. During a rite’s liminal stage, participants “stand at the threshold” between their previous way of structuring their identity, time, or community, and a new way, which completing the rite establishes.

  • Rite of passage. A rite of passage is a ceremony or ritual of the passage which occurs when an individual leaves one group to enter another. It involves a significant change of status in society.
  • This came up while i was watching a youtube video: Myth, Wisdom & Pandemic, Stephen Jenkinson, Zak Stein & Charlotte Du Cann

    I haven’t finished this video, but i will continue once i have written this post. The word liminal did come up in it quite early on in the video. Curious about the rest of it.
  • Then the thought came up to pull a day card for me. I pulled Death. Pulling the Death card is like, are you ready to move onto the next level?

I have been thinking about these aspects and things in myself for many many years. Maybe even the biggest part of my life. I hope i can find the courage within myself to continue with this. To take on my life and my work with seriousness. To not let go. To hold on. Fiercely.

Published on April 28, 2020 at 6:00 by

Plan A

Three months ago i moved my stuff out of my house. I stayed in there for another short week, clearing up all the things i didn’t want to save. Magazines, a couch, an old fridge. Out of my house.

Because it still felt like my house. And really, right now, it still feels like that. I still feel the pain of leaving that nice little place at the waterside close to the center. I still have the key of the downstairs front door, so i can get my post. Because i’m still officially living there. Sometimes at night i still see the sleeping room, the bathroom, the backroom, the front room and the kitchen in my mind. I still feel what it was like to live there. Safe. Alone.

This hurts. A lot.

This evening i talked with Ted about this feeling. I felt the tears coming to my eyes. I said i have only one plan. Plan A. This website. This place which i have made my own. This place which i love. This place here where i feel at home. This place i can not leave behind.

Right now i’m in an in between place. Not yet leaving behind my past, not yet looking to the future. This pain i feel is something i need to deal with. I need to give it a place to rest. I know i can. I know. But it is hard, difficult, painful.

So right now, i am looking back, living the memories.

I hope you are well. Enjoy the weekend. Stand up straight! Salute!

Published on April 24, 2020 at 6:00 by

A hard day’s work

Today i spend the afternoon working in the Vredestuin Noord. It is a lovely day, the sun is shining. Together with Hilde i spend the afternoon working hard.

We did the following:

  • we seeded three full trays of courgette/zuchini and three full trays of pumpkins
  • we watered all the seedlings and the plants in the greenhouse
  • we watered all the new planted grapes at the pergola, five liters for each grape
  • we watered the calendula, the kohlrabi, the chamomile, the beetroot, the parsnips and other root plants seeded in the bed
  • we talked about Friday, when i will be working at the Vredestuin Noord, we will seed chard and flowers, the cosmos and the zinnia!

Just after five i was simply too tired to harvest anything. I walked back home slowly. I made a salad, with spinach and half a avocado and tomato and pepper and soft goat cheese. Yum! After that i got a cup of coffee. Thanks for that!

And now i’m too tired to do anything else. Bye bye! Enjoy the photos i made!

Published on April 23, 2020 at 6:00 by